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I can 'smell' christmas! Ii'm so excited..i bought myself a christmas tree...or rather, christmas plant..and darling helped me to decorate it! i put it on top of my piano..it's such a pretty thing! oh! i also decorate my car...it's so damn girly...but darling still dares to drive my car *keke*

I also attached Ernie near my steering wheel... at the windscreen wiper switch..ernie's hands, legs and mouth has magnet! so cute hor? darling made a story outta it...

1) This is Ernie
2) Ernie got shot!
3) Ernie's dead.
Silly! he did this while i was driving...argh~ anyway,i'm going to do my christmas shopping list, and buy christmas gifts by this weekend...cos christmas is just next weekend!

Jingles!

I've been going to the gym rather regularly...well, i hope this routine lasts *keke* i didn't know that i was entitled to free gym usage til last week, i called up Orchird Country Club and ask.. oh well, members are entitled to free usage,guest gotta pay $5.. i thought anyone who uses the gym hafta pay! i went to gym last friday..after recovering from body aches(have not been exercising for a long long time), i went to the gym again yesterday! and i'm going again in the evening! i feel good after exercising man.. i ran 3km and 'cycle' 3km.. did some weights.. i spent more time on cardio coz i wanna lose weight! after that then i'll tone up.. i realised that my appetite decreases(which is good), and i don't feel lethargic in the afternoons, which i usually do! I'm looking forward to the new me! haha..

My darling is worse.. he jogs 7.8km and swam dunno how many thousand laps that day...and i guess he also wanna tone up his body...coz he's belly is coming out again!

I'm hitting the gym again this evening, then pick darling up.. then have dinner.. and i'm definately gonna watch my Harry potter this weekend! then, the next movie would be Just like Heaven, followed Narnia..and i shall see what's new..

It's Maple time!

It's a very hot day today! Dar, his brother and I went to Toa Payoh Swimming Complex as VOLUNTEERy lifeguard for this event. It's organised by Boys Brigade Singapore, and it's purpose is to raise funds for Cambodians. Oh, forgot to mention...it's gonna be recorded in the Singapore book of records...for the most number of swimmers, swimming from 10am to 10pm! There were 2 female stuff from Singapore Book of Records to eye-witness the whole event.

I didn't know what was going on until 2 hours later.. one swimmer is supposed to swim one lap of the olympic pool, and when he/she reaches, she must touch the wall...and the next person jumps in.. swims one lap to the other side, touches the wall.. the next other person jumps in and continues the "relay" till 10pm! so, can you imagine how many pple came to swim?!

Well, reached there.. waited for the person in charge to give us our "CREW" t-shirt.. waited damn long.. and i even helped myself to the goodie bag...which is not "GOODY" at all loh.. it's just a teenage magazine and a pink towel... wat the.... I'm not teenage already leh.. read already, feel so bored! haha, but started to think back to my secondary school days.. so silly... life is so different now that i'm no longer a teenage..i'm a young adult! alright... then... to make things worse, this band called "Root Of AGONY"(4 malay guys that's not handsome at all) came to play and (obviously can't)SING a few songs(noises) for us... nobody clapped...hahah...damn funny... i bet i can sing and play better music than them.

haven't been a lifeguard for years.. well, just go and enjoy the event loh.. wanted to swim and be part of the relay! but...i never bring my swim suit... coz i don't intend to save anyone that day! haha~ you think i can still remember my CPR?... there are many weird swimmers... some glide thru the waters gracefully... some struggle thru the 50m.. some swam like they're drowning.. Dar even took of his t-shirt, waiting to jump in to rescue that person...haha.. there's young kids (5 years old), old man (70 plus), and even handicapped people.. well, it's an eye-opener... then again, i have to mention...the event will go on smoothly even WITHOUT the "Root of Agony"...which is indeed very agonising!

Went to Junction 8 with darling after that..went to repair his Sony Digi cam....spoilt :( if not can post photos of the event :( I bought myself 3 pairs of earring...or rather, ear studs...silver and round... and i put them on on the spot.. it was a butch who attended to me.. she helped me hold all the 6 ear studs, waited for me to put on one by one..haha.. i even suspect that she likes me... haha.. she ask me why i have so many ear holes...come to think of it, ya hor.. last time sec sch vain mah...pierce so many..now must waste money to keep them... and my earrings always gets missing.. 8 ear holes altogether.. means i spent $5 times 8 = $40 to pierce them last time.. i then dun wanna waste the money to let the holes close back... then we went to shop for carel's present...can't find...went to causeway point..bought her a pink billabong wallet....then went pasar malam...then home sweet home... legs damn tired.. Oh! bought a pair of rings at Bits and Pieces.. with a little design..and a "diamonte" in the middle...darling likes it leh..haha.. Dar bluffed her mom that both the rings cost $1300 altogether, and she nearly believed! ..so, you can imagine the rings' not bad huh! then waited for them to engrave the letters... we went to play with toys at the children department...damn fun.. saw so many carebears! oh.. and i saw this guess watch..i think it's damn cool! it's like a bracelet...it has a cover...open it up to see the clock face.. nice loh! i'm gonna eye on it unless i find a better one.. now i have to decide whether to buy my Gucci sunglasses or Guess watch (christmas present for myself) ..

Body's aching...went to the gym at orchird country club on friday.. gonna rest now.. til then!

...because i have alot of time to spend with my dar dar..and tmr,i'm going out with fanny..haha~ first time going out with her... well, i know she's gonna ask me to buy alot of things...we're going to shop, watch movie, go esplanade to find piano scores... and eat of course! i'm gonna budget my spendings to $150 tmr.. the most $200 :)

Dar bought me a Burberry's bag yesterday..haha.. why i haha? don't wanan say! *keke* it's pink :) Anyway, dar is sick... i just took his temperature 39.8! then i gave him panadol...then become 37.8.. later i go and take again.. maybe he don't need to go camp tmr...

Went Suntec today...to expo Malaysia tours.. we're going to genting! come to think of it, i haven't been there for many many years.. and this time, i'm gonna visit the casino! just turned 21 this year...so...shall blog my "winnings" when i'm back! leaving on 4th dec, coming back on 7th dec..

La casa is almost 3 storey high.. I pass by it every saturday and i see it getting taller and taller each week.. La casa is the place that Dar and I wanna buy...it'll be our dream condo.. $500K.. we're saving up.. every storey they build, we must save a thousand dollars. There are 12 stories and 5 buildings.. after they finished the construction, we should have $60K.. well, the downpayment's only 25K.. so far, we're a little behind the target.. coz we used some money for the trip... well, that means we're gonna save more next month..

I bought 3 black tops, 2 skirts, 2 bags this last week..oh no... i hope i dun buy anymore stuff tmr.. gonna buy 'practical' stuff.. like shoes(flat), jeans, foundation, eyebrow pencil, bday present for mikki, rachel and Gilbert, book mark for my 2006 organiser... hmm...think i could go on and on...

Watching My date with vampire 3.. so stupid the show, but i still watch.. silly shows entertains me *keke*

Few days ago, dar and i went jalan jalan.. whenever we see toy trains and its railway track, he will think of yuling..haha.. coz that time we went her place, her hubby told us about his railway track around his living room..*keke*

I kinda look forward to this week.. i feel that when i'm focused on what i wanna do, time passes very quickly..

ok, time to take dar's temperature again.. off.

OoOOoOh, it's a beautiful day!

I spend most mornings reflecting about what i want in life.. maybe not reflecting, just thinking... i usually do my admin and paper work in the mornings.. i'll work out my new schedule(it changes every week!), my income(it always increases!), my expenses(it always increases too!)...etc...

I'm quite ok with the live i'm living now.. with a rather good income for a 21 year old... my expenese are rather high though.. but it's ok.. i'm starting out earlier than most of my friends.. and i love my students... to a point where i don't think i can can ever give them up for my new piano studio in future..

Right now, i'll just continue whatever i'm doing, perhaps have another 5 more students...that's all.. my next aim is to buy a house with my dar dar.. it seems so far fetched...but i know... we're getting a step closer and closer to it.. we're saving for it......., i can "Smell" abit of the house already!

Never blog regularly coz so many things happened...i'm just plain lazy to type it all out.. actually, my life is quite mono.. well, when things are going smoothly, i complained of life being mono...when there's so many happenings, i complained life is unfair.. *crazy*

My student's practical exam results are out... 2 didn't make it... one stopped lesson for almost 4 months, and her mom wanted to have like last min lesson...well, of coz..that's not gonna help..
One is not musically inclined at all..i tried to help...but, she missed by 4 marks...well, i wrote an appeal to UK, hopefully she'll pass.. the rest of my students got a merit... so, it's not my fault that the students fail lah.. some just didn't have the flair for it.. i'm so sorry to say that..but that is it..

I wanna go on a diet! but i really have no motivation.. i need to control my food intake and exercise regularly.. if not take wedding photo not nice! :( Actually, it's not that i eat alot..but rather, i'm eating at irregular timing... i don't eat breakfast...i can skip lunch and eat only one meal a day at 5pm... and sometimes i eat lunch at 3pm, and dinner at 10pm... like yesterday... i had maggi mee at 11am, and dinner at 1015pm.. so now, i'm gonna prepare sandwiches and put them in my car! so whenever it's lunch time, i eat one.. when i feel like snacking, it's always healthy to much on bread...and when i've no time for dinner, i can eat while driving! *keke* i'm going NTUC to buy bread tonight! lalallallallaaa~

It's gonna rain again and my car is damn dirty.. my dar say my car is like a man's car.. so messy and dirty... His car is cleaner than mine *hee* not i dun wanna take care k...it rains everyday...if i wash my car, all my effort will be wasted...then again, i need to buy a mini vacumn to clean up the interior... yicks!

gotta bathe now.. will see dar dar at Swimming pool in the evening... might wanna go for a dip!

...no, i don't mean "men".... i mean menstruation! haha~ finally... for the past one and a half years, my mens has been so irregular... sometimes 2 months once, 3 months once....aiyoh...so irritating...don't even know when it'll come... gotta put a few pads in my car..in case... my this time, it came! ...one month! haha~ i was shopping at giant with darling when i suddenly have the urge to shit! then i went to the toilet...and when i was going to wipe my backside, i saw blood! haha... sorry ah, abit gross...i mean..imagine i carry on shopping...think i wouldn't have feel my blood dripping...anyway, rushed home right after i'm outta the toilet... though have mens is quite a hassle... but when it doesn't come regularly..it's quite scary you know.... then again when it comes regularly, it's so troublesome...gotta waste money on pad some more...argh

We're gonna have a BBQ at sembawang park this sat! Chilldren's Day! darling and I organised it for our swimming classes :) actually the parents suggested it lah, so darling and i went on and planned it! so exciting! pray for good weather that day man! Gonna bring camera... and take many pictures!

Was coaching at castle green yesterday and spoke with Gina.... was asking her if i should get a Executive Condo or a 5 room flat... headache leh...sigh...

played theme hospital for the last few days... this morning too...at the last stage...but i just can't get over it..so angry! don't wanna play already...i go and play piano...

I'm soOOoO Lazy to blog... maybe just a little a day hor? whenever i have time...

It's raining now.. supposed to be out teaching piano.. but Ivy Lee just cancelled today's lesson..she wanna bring Mikki out.. *sigh.. I've been teaching Mikki for more than a year already i think.. but still haven't take her grade 1 exam.... sometimes i just wanna tell her mom, that i don't wanna teach her anymore.. coz she doesn't practice her piano at all...learning piano's not so easy k.. need to p.r.a.c.t.i.c.e! but Mikki's very cute..can't bear to give her up..she writes me cards, and remembers teacher's day! haha.. so sweet hor...

Went to view a few condo yesterday... suddenly think that MONEY is very important...ya...though money is not everything.. but without money, you can't buy anything! So, Darling and I are going spend $2 on toto every week.. to buy something...... called HOPE!

Ya, did i mentioned i pay $230 for the damages done to Mazda 2.. quite good le... oH! We're gonna have a BBQ on children's day...gonna invite all the kids (swimming class) to Sembawang Park... and their parents...didn't know they all so enthu! hahah....it's potluck.. then they all wanna prepare food.. satay.. drinks...etc....

Looking forward to that day!

i met with an accident...a super minor one..but i think it's gonna costs me some money.. less then $200 i hope... CTE traffic was super slow...and i was behind a mazda 2...she keeps on braking...braking...braking...ya, and i bumped into her.. sigh...she's nice lah.. i'm gonna meet her at my workshop at 330pm.. just a minor dent... oh! she's a 'P' plate too.. damn..darling always advice me not to drive behind "P" plate... now i know why..though i'm a "P" plate myself, but i rather fluent in driving k....see how lah...maybe can negotiate....going to serene's workshop...she's gonna help me i guess....thank goodness...i know her... it's the power or networking...now i know..i must make more friends!

well, it's ok... just had a chat with yuling.. told be she buang toyota integra...scratch only $200... she's sharing with me her experiences on the road... seems like ifyou're on the road, these kinda things are inavoidable... *CHOY* see how lah..darling say he'll pay abit for me..keke..and we're gonna meet up this sunday.. to view her flat! then shun bian talk about marriage! keke...

going to workshop le...shall see how things go...............................wish me luck :(

...but dunno for how long... well, been away from blogging for so long.. lazy lah! but that doesn't mean i haven't been reading blogs k! those that i've read faithfully includes Yuling, jiaxin, jiarui fanny.. been reading yuling's blog coz it's really interesting to have a friend my age to get married... and also, to learn from her..find out more info.... coz, it's gonna be my turn soon :) haha~ oops.. looking around for house and photo shooting.. ROM venue...maybe next year... or the year after.. .... been reading jiaxin's blog to find out how's she.. well, i'm not that close to her, but i still care for her.. hope she's doing fine.. but her blog is down! damn..

I'm gonna order KFC and watch superstar tonight... i'm supporting Weilian! simply because... he's blind...sad to say.. many pple's perception of superstar is that... one is able to present himself/herself on stage... but to me, superstar means, that person has to touch people's life...and i believe weilian can do it.. his voice's quite nice mah! well well, we shall see...

I've been drinking yakult faithfully everyday... it helps in my bowel movements! really! my constipation problem is quite bad leh!...used to shit once every 3 days, sometimes evern once a week! ahah..now... everyday 2 days... then recently, everyday!!! lalala~ i was happy... that time i even went to yakult factory at senoko to look at how yakult is processed..haha...

Off to play theme hospital now!

Hyundai Getz was "born" on 26th July! it's a sunday.. after swimming, dar and I, together with Dar's mummy went to collect my car! Dar's daddy fetched us there with his big big lorry! so fun! anyway, the first thing we reached there was to hunt for my car.. coz we already know the number.. SFW466Y :) so chio.. it looks like a Hyundai matriz to me leh.. coz i've asked for a spoiler, multi-disc changer, sports rim, leather seats, central locking & alarm, reverse censor :) complete already! just that my side mirror's not auto...well..i'll change it one day.. we checked the car...sign documents....and off we go...well, not me driving..dar drove it... coz i haven't bought my "P" plate yet... it's a probation plate..gotta put there for a year! :(

drove to the shell petrol kiosk the first thing we left the place...full tank petrol costs about $58...then went home... dar went to buy "P" plate for me...then i came down again, i drove around the neighbourhood... it's an auto car, must get used to it... dar's dad called...he wants to see the car, so i fetch dar, dar's bro and mom to dar's dad working place so he can see the car :) then i drove to eat laksa..then swimming...then dinner..then home! so fun! lucky to darling beside me, if not i scared scared........

i came to realise that on the road, it's actually not the vehicles that are scary...it's the PEOPLE! they just cross the road anyhow...and come to think of it..car is just a machine...it's people who are controlling it....

i start my drive with a prayer always...that i'll have a safe journey throughout......

I'm gonna get a car! GETZ! ...can't believe it.. getting a car at 21... well, many rich kids out there probably start driving as early as 18... dad bought them a car, or watever.. but i use my money to get my own car! it's different.. dunno how to explain..

anyway, it'll be a Hyundai Getz.. not a fabulous car, can move lah! but looks cute leh.. reminds me of a mini version of grandis..haha.. well, thot of sharing vios with darling, but his schedule and mine will be different.. so, get 2 cars :) both are black! i was actually thinking of getting the same car number as dar's car...but..it's another $1000.. hmm... no money :(

well, we're never satisfied...right darling? now that we both each have our own car, we'll be looking forward to a 5 room flat in 2 years time :) yeah!

Love you Dardar..

Oh, forgot to mention..darling bought this ornament for me, i put it on our study table.. hmm.. it's this bou and girl, trying to pile bricks and eventually, build a wall.. dar wants me to look at it whenever, and reminds me that our hardwork now will eventually give us a better life in future.. now whenever i look at it, i feel so motivated! my house... here i come!

Monday.. woke up quite early today...at about 11am plus... once i woke up, started to arrange all the furnitures... coz my M20 is coming tmr afternoon instead of wed! yipee! means i can get to play it on wed morning! so fuN! so Dar's mummy and i spent about half an hour planning how to rearrange the furnitures to fit in my M20.. then spend another half an hour shifting the furniture..so funny.. shift and shirt, finally shift back to original position, only shift the study table! *keke* then spent another half an hour clearing and packing dar's stuff...now the room looks so much better!

then...1pm already.. went to eat some cereal...and dar's mom getting ready to go and fetch carel and desmond.. and we're meeting at sun plaza for lunch at 145pm.. so i was planning some stuff at home.. then we went food court and both of us ate ban mian and shared a can of ice peach tea... then went to walk walk and look and some cupboard... coz mine and dar's things really alot..so, need cupboard to put our things..

while walking home, dar's mom suddenly ask if wanna go Giant and walk walk.. so we went up the shuttle bus.. and half way thru, desmond's mom called and say desmond got stomach ache... so we alighted and walked back.. to find out that desmond is bluffing.. he wanna come up and play computer! haha.. but too bad.. i'm playing..so he have to wait till 5pm..

i plan to leave my mondays free....to do my things... then the rest of the days will be outta the house.. also good lah.. have the start of the week to plan my things.. anyway, next monday, dar is still in main land.. so can spend time with hiM! yipee!

april 16th

Everyone said i looked like princess that day.... just that i'm abit fat :( anyway...last year i had my hair let down... this year i decided to bring it up.. did the make up and hair for $39...quite cheap hor? went with Masha, Veron, Jin Zhen, Xiu Yu, Jean, Winnie, Claire, Richelle :) reached AMK red point at about 11am..and stayed there till 4pm... no choice lah..too many of us... girls abit more troublesome lah... not like guys... so simple.. *sigh* anyway, it was drizzling at AMK sumore...so we all took cab down to suntec for rehearsal first.. damn scary loh...it's the real performace already.. the day before, we rehearse till 1am plus.... *yawn* we had a full dress rehearsal...then.. gotta get ready le...went to get our door gifts... then went to our table... 67... very near the aisle! very good view! went to take lotsa photos before the whole event begins...

3 of Us!

sat beside weijie at the table... at the same table was shiyun, baldwin, karen, allan, kaiyang, aihui... decided to take the 3 of us...to show dar dar his 'network'.. it's a pity he doesn't have the chance to come.. but i know.. definately next year, it won't just be the 3 of us.. it'll be many many tables! weijie & richelle look nice that day... both of them sit together very noisy..keep talking...haha... we had a few dishes, then gotta go perform already..it was fun man.. the performance was over before i knew it..

2 Marquis & Me

Well, after that... Don went up to take his marquis pin.. hmm...dunno why, i dun really feel the excitement leh...not like last year... but last year i blur blur leh..dun even know what is marquis...haha..just go and eat... and present the monkey to ronald.. hmm... this year, the feeling is different... well, perhaps when i go up stage next year, then the feeling would be definately good! *keke*

Went to stay at Ottani hotel that night..shared the room with the girls.. next day we have master hong's class.. wah! really learn alot of things man! anyhow, i haven't spoke to darling for 3 days already..have been talking alot of "cases" the past 2 days..

and..i've decided to get my M20 piano! lalalallal~

i wanna buy lotsa things... and all needs $$$$$$$$$$$$.......

i wanna buy a piano... a 'Baldwin-lookalike-Yamaha' piano, a pair of silver heels for award presentation, shiny bracelet, black shawl, brooch, house, car, 21st birthday party, bag, formal clothes, lots and lots of pretty clothes, cosmetics, bags etc........so many so many things....oh yah! and Diner Dash game..

wanna learn piano, violin, organ, pop keyboard, saxaphone, drums, flute... imagine i have grade 8 for all instruments! so shiok! but i would really love a piano for now... really need one.... it's a NEED! not a WANT! sometimes, i imagine to myself..that HE will ask me what i would like for my 21st birthday.. and i would say... give me $21K... for these 21 years that you've not given me anything.. it only averaged out to be 1k a year.. not alot mah.. my mom definately spent more than that on me... so? give me 21k please...

Dar will be booking in out in 9 days' time..it's really very fast.. but after that, he gotta book in again for another 2 weeks... miss him badly.. actually, it makes me more independant.. i feel like i'm able to concentrate more on what i'm supposed to do.. haha... like teaching piano.. whenever i see darling at home, i don't feel like going out to teach.. wanan laze around with him.. now that he's in the army, i can go out to teach :) also, i can also now use the study table to do planning.. usually, the table would be piled up with dar's things.. and dunno why, when he's around, i won't like to do planning... aiyah, when he's around.. i just like to laze around and cuddle up to him... makes me lazy... ARGH.....

been's feeding his fishes every morning... at night, Dar's dad will feed... very fun leh... when i see the fishese growing bigger and bigger each day...especially my feifei.. damn fat now..haha... wonder if it'll ever stop swimming.. too fat... can't swim *keke*

Wondering how i should celebrate my 21st? or should i even celebrate? nobody celebrate with me? it's a saturday.. RTM... chalet? Dar dunno whether can book out or not... or...shall i just let it past? i won't feel sad or wat.. just that.. hmm... missed out on that kinda "Oh-finally-21" feeling.. hmm.. we'll see when the date draws nearer...

................... he said i looked tanned..... came down to the company..went to office to talk to chris..then went RTM.. well...he seemed like he dun wanna leave so early..keke.. sigh, dunno how to say.. i was thinking if he'll regret his choice many years ago..now that i'm so successful in life, well..at least i think i am.... probably he'll feel a crinch in his heart... hmm...

anyway..i'm feeling all emotional these days.. darling is not beside me.. now i know the meaning of "Absence makes the heart grows fonder".. *cry cry*...

Took over darling's swim class today...it's quite fun teaching swimming...time passes very fast! i reached the pool at 830am..so early hor! then the bloody lifeguard came to check on me.. then i proudly show him my $60 receipt for S.I....he say this one is NCAP not S.I....i told him to take down my name, and receipt number.. call SEAN of S.I to check.. and don't take up my time teaching.. idiot.. see me so young..jealous ah.. then gt a few male coaches came and say hi to me.. hmm... haha.. i think i look really cool in my wet suit...probably the chio-est female coach around! keke..

they took the board, kicked 2 laps.. then swim 4 laps.. those who finish fast like weixiong, sheryl, jeffery, carel, desmond, weiliang..while waiting for the rest.. i ask if they wanna go for 2 more laps..all say yes.... so off they go.. except for carel.. dunno why leh.. don't have time to communicate with her also.. then carel's mom came down..talk to her..ask her to swim... issit because she don't like me to coach her? usually she very active one.. but today... hm... issit me? then for sheryl... swim one lap stop 5,6 times.. then slowly 4 times... then 3 times... i realise that she needs alot of encouragement... then weixiang as usual...playing a fool... told him to go one corner and stand today... then he cry... argh..can't be bothered... before that, when swimming first lap, i told Jiarui to push him out.. don't even let him touch the wall...so i think he swam quite abit today... he kept giving excuses..say stomach pain, leg pain, hand pain, sleepy...etc... anything you can think off... wah piangz... after that.. wear pyjamas.. swim one lap.. tread water... make float...swim another lap...finish.. Conclusion... they still dunno how to make float with pyjamas.. must teach them..

Then told weixiang and sheryl to stay back 10mins loh..teach them.. issac is ok lah.. coordination problem..but can correct easily.. darren is confirm coordination problem.. need alot of patience.. i believe.. he'll be able to swim one day! yeah!.. anyway, i gave jiarui $30 for helping me.. and ya, weixiang/weixiong's & Carel/desmond's fess, Mom Toh keep :) they fetch me to bishan.. then went to eat lunch, then packet for me... then fetch me to office after that...didn't know they were waiting for me outside The Gardens.. told them to go home.. and they say ok... but...hm.. really appreciate them.. feel so paiseh leh..

Haiz...

Pegasus

Dar is in this company.. told the people in office...everyone say it's good.. not as tough as MTV :) glad for dar dar...

msged me at 5.06am.. didn't see it till about 8am... when i woke up... so happy to recieve msg from dar.. woke up with a sprain on the left side of my neck.. dunno why... hmm...

Anyway, it's a long day today.. teach piano from 9am all the way, non-stop till 530pm... change 2 classes to today... coz yesterday went tekong with dar... didn't have lunch... but also not hungry leh.. dunno why... just teach... time flies... dun even know it's evening already..

supposed to be office at 2pm today to do sketch.. but can't lah.. teaching piano.. but the rest of the people went ahead... those who can... claire, veron, jin zhen & xiu yu went to buy clothes for april 16th today... hm... xiu yu's one is a spaghetti black dress...simple knee-length.. think she'll look sweet... jinzhen one i haven't see yet...she say she left it in office.. she only bought a top, coz she got skirt at home already...so jean ask her to bring the skirt tmr.. then see if can match :)

then mom called me... confirm where to meet.. well, i said i'm teaching piano at shaw plaza... so my mom and HE came.. i was on the 3rd level of shaw plaza... they're late.. i went to walk walk.. didn't think much..really... till my HP rang.. mom's already at shaw plaza... i was quite nervous leh... haven't seen him for so many years.. can't remember a single thing.. then...when i was going down on the escalator... i was scouting around... my mom say i look like him.. i starting to comb my hair.. trying to look as presentable as i can.. dunno what's wrong with me man..

anyway, when i reached the 1st floor... my mom called me.. i asked...where's he... haha..he went toilet... probably to comb hair... haha..just guessing :) then he came.. oh god.. so ugly! haha.. no lah..just that.. he doesn't look like wat i thot he should look like...coz from what i remembered, i got a photo of him, carrying me when i was a few months old...tall and skinny... now.. ok lah.. of a reasonable height, and not fat, not skinny..i would say....fit.... dunno how to describe... anyway, he asked where to eat... i said somewhere air-conditioned.. so we ended up in novena fish and co... ate seafood platter for one :) all by myself... so full!

spend about 1.5 hours there... chit chatting.. hmm.. just normal conversation.. he say i'm dark.... argh! anyway... we went to office...chatted in small office with chris... then sat thru 20 mins of rtm.. then go back into small room for Q&A... then mummy and i sent him down.. then bye bye...
after that, brought mummy up to office to introduce to everybody... then went mac to talk to mummy...for about an hour... then walk with mummy to bus stop... then went back office... to find that they all going back already... hmmm.... then, xinyang fetched me home...

didn't chat much with Dar today..he like busy leh.. or issit he don't love me already :( hmm... can he still remember how i look like? alrighty..it's been a long day... i shall continue with part 2 tmr.. about our conversations... and my deeper feelings...

Miss you dar dar!

NS Enlistment Day


Went to Tekong today... well, woke up at about 9 am today... coz dar has been bugging me for Mac big breakfast meal for days! but always cannot wake up, today...we finally went.. after eating mac, went to buy biscuit... then came home to prepare somemore stuff for army...

Dar is so nervous...then hor, i keep thinking to myself.... on the day that we're gonna get married, dunno he'll be so nervous or not? actually, i realise that Dar is very cute... he may be egoistic...and puts up a strong and brave front... but i think, deep inside, he's still nervous... afterall, he's a young boy still...not even 21... perhaps i always forsee him as someone mature.. come to think of it, i forgot that he's 21 years old!

Keep taking pictures.. it's a warm warm weather... i sit in the ferry, i feel like tearing already..but i never.. i know...once dar hops on the ferry, he'll not be back on main land till 22nd april... anyway, we toured around.. waited for very long.. i toured before already, so nothing much.. only looking forward to dar take the oath.. so cute.. he look very toot with his shirt tucked in... so cute... so boyish..

Finally, we went to eat...western food leh! keke.. then dar gotta send us off...took some more picture... so funny... dar dar hug me.. then wanna kiss me.. but i shy... but ultimately.. still kissed... keke... well, didn't really feel sad... just miss him...

so tired.. then Dar's parents fetch his bro to school...wanted to fetch me to commonwealth, but i dun want... not very nice..so i took a train to commonwealth from YCK mrt station... very long never take already.. used to darling fetching me... miss miss..i must be independant...

From the looks of it, he's adapting quite well... Dar have no problems making frens de..i know.. just that he say the food sucks! keke... i very worried, that he can't wake up tmr morning.. i'll leave him a msg every night before i sleep.. see if he'll read it next morning...

Miss you Dar Dar..

Haven't blogged for months! anyway... Darling and I are together for a year already! 29th March 2005.. seems quite long.. hmm.. perhaps in this year, we've really spent alot of time together.. well, we were supposed to wake up at 7am, then go eat soya bean curd and you jia kuay at Geylang..but we both can't wake up..haha..expected.. however, we woke up at 1030am...not bad le... went kallang to settle our swimming stuff, then went to suntec to eat Fish & Co.. eat until darling wanna vomit *keke* then..wanted to go marina and shop.. but under renovation *argh* spent the whole day walking around... suddenly realised that singapore is quite small..but anyway, i really enjoyed yesterday.. as long as darling is beside me, anywhere on earth is ok :) oh! we also went serangoon to see fishes!

Decided not to go out yesterday..partly because i'm sick...and also because i really wanna spend time with darling..he's going NS soon..i know he's feeling down.. PNS..pre-NS-syndrom...

After reading his blog, i can totally relate with what he's trying to say... about the past.. how he used to be so carefree...but now that he's chose a different route...well, same goes for me..

2 years later, i believe dar's future and mine will be very bright..But now dar will have to go thru the NS phrase...and i pormise to go thru every single minute of it with him!

not too long ago was Valentines' Day.. in fact, it was 2 days ago..

Happy chinese new year! on the first on new year, i went to pasir ris to visit grandparents.. together with dar.. well, bitch was there but well, i'm not at all concerned if she's there or not.. well, they kinda know that i have a boyfriend now.. dunno why, i get really emotional during chinese new year.. probably it's because i get to visit my relatives and have a flashback of my childhood.. not just on the unhappy memories, but on the happy ones too...like how everyone doted on me..

then went to Dar's relatives' place.. was sitting beside dar all the while, see him play mahjong.. was quite bored, so took a short walk to Hougang point..then shun bian use the toilet there to poo poo *keke* got aircon mah..

then went to nanny's house in the evening.. Dar came along too.. then met my mom... again, they chatted...this time about biz.. think Dar got a little interested..

anyway, to conclude, this chinese new year is a little weird... dunno how to explain leh.. i feel kinda close to my mom... budden again, i didn't even step into my own house... instead, i'm at dar's house.. hiya, dunno lah...

sometimes i even felt that it's a wrong move to move to dar's place.. coz it's even more conflicting.. i have plans... probably to germ's place.. perhaps.. things would be better if we see less of each other... also.. dar's mom thot of buying car... i wouldn't mind going for this idea.. but wat if things dun turn out the way it is... sigh.. i really dunno..

i just feel extremely pressurised.. and i really don't like the way things are now.. i mean... yes.. money is important.. but so wat? it's never enough.. now i finally understand the meaning of "money is the root of all evil"... but please... i need space... my own space.. i really seriously feel like a robot now... i'm feelingless... i'm numb.. there's no life and love in me anymore..

z o m b i e~

New yEar is like just 2 days ahead...year of the rooster! Tmr's reunion dinner.. i've already booked a restaurant nearby my house, to bring daddy, mummy, ernest, fanny and rachel for dinner :) booked steamboat buffet at marina square actually, but i find that it's too boring eating steamboat...thot we can eat more variety of dishes :) i had to order the dishes before the actualy day, so they can prepare (haha, like getting married lydat) *keke* i odered Sharksfins with scallop, steam fish..dunno how they call it..something like "kim bak lor" in hokkien, butter prawns, kangkong, 2 crabs, fried chicken, fried beancurd... think that's all.. dunno how to order, anyhow order *keke*

probably go grandfather's house on wed morning.. then have lunch there till about 2pm... then will follow darling around le.. then at night go to nanny's place.. feel kinda excited about new year.. dunno why..

i started my driving lesson again last wed.. i like this instructor... hopefully i'll pass! driving test is on march 16th.. gotta pass man.. if not when Dar goes army on April 8, nobody will fetch me :(
dunno how issit like when Dar goes army.. will i be lost? hmm.. been quarreling these few days.. because of work.. sigh..

sometimes i really HATE this kinda feeling.. if given me a choice again, i wouldn't wanna mix work and relationship.. i'm actually feeling quite numb now.. unsure how to describe the feeling, but i'm just afraid that the "special" kind of feeling will soon die off...

watever it is, all the best for me in the rooster year!

been almost a month since i blogged...very busy with stuff..lazy to blog too..

New year is coming.. that's like super soon! ..just a week more.. have yet to buy my new year clothes.. budget.. and, valentine's day is coming!

Wonder how will my new year be like this year, thought of bringing my family out for steamboat buffet in Marina Square.. that'll be like $30 per person..so, altogether (Me, Mummy, Ernest, Fanny, Rachel.. daddy-if he wants to come)..bitch is outta my list.. so, should be about $200..it's quite reasonable mah..now i gotta like go and book the place..that'll be on 8th Feb..

On 9th Feb, the usual thing would be lunch at pasir ris.. grandparents place.. but this time, i would be setting off from sembawang, instead of AMK.. usually will reach there about 11am, this time think i'll bring darling there.. meet my grandparents.. my parents.. my relatives, then..go off le.. after that usually will visit my dad's side of relative, but dun think i'll wanna go this year.. not cloes to them at all, bloody hell dun even know who are they.. probably follow darling around.. then night time, wanan bring darling to my nanny's place.. my mom and sisters will be there too..so, we can gather again :)

this year seems to be a year of challenges ahead for me, but i wanna make sure that january 2006, will be the best new year of my life! also..i'll be turning 21 this year.. soon.. 4 more months.. gotta make sure i'll make a mark by then!