not too long ago was Valentines' Day.. in fact, it was 2 days ago..
Happy chinese new year! on the first on new year, i went to pasir ris to visit grandparents.. together with dar.. well, bitch was there but well, i'm not at all concerned if she's there or not.. well, they kinda know that i have a boyfriend now.. dunno why, i get really emotional during chinese new year.. probably it's because i get to visit my relatives and have a flashback of my childhood.. not just on the unhappy memories, but on the happy ones too...like how everyone doted on me..
then went to Dar's relatives' place.. was sitting beside dar all the while, see him play mahjong.. was quite bored, so took a short walk to Hougang point..then shun bian use the toilet there to poo poo *keke* got aircon mah..
then went to nanny's house in the evening.. Dar came along too.. then met my mom... again, they chatted...this time about biz.. think Dar got a little interested..
anyway, to conclude, this chinese new year is a little weird... dunno how to explain leh.. i feel kinda close to my mom... budden again, i didn't even step into my own house... instead, i'm at dar's house.. hiya, dunno lah...
sometimes i even felt that it's a wrong move to move to dar's place.. coz it's even more conflicting.. i have plans... probably to germ's place.. perhaps.. things would be better if we see less of each other... also.. dar's mom thot of buying car... i wouldn't mind going for this idea.. but wat if things dun turn out the way it is... sigh.. i really dunno..
i just feel extremely pressurised.. and i really don't like the way things are now.. i mean... yes.. money is important.. but so wat? it's never enough.. now i finally understand the meaning of "money is the root of all evil"... but please... i need space... my own space.. i really seriously feel like a robot now... i'm feelingless... i'm numb.. there's no life and love in me anymore..
z o m b i e~
ConFLict..
New Year!
New yEar is like just 2 days ahead...year of the rooster! Tmr's reunion dinner.. i've already booked a restaurant nearby my house, to bring daddy, mummy, ernest, fanny and rachel for dinner :) booked steamboat buffet at marina square actually, but i find that it's too boring eating steamboat...thot we can eat more variety of dishes :) i had to order the dishes before the actualy day, so they can prepare (haha, like getting married lydat) *keke* i odered Sharksfins with scallop, steam fish..dunno how they call it..something like "kim bak lor" in hokkien, butter prawns, kangkong, 2 crabs, fried chicken, fried beancurd... think that's all.. dunno how to order, anyhow order *keke*
probably go grandfather's house on wed morning.. then have lunch there till about 2pm... then will follow darling around le.. then at night go to nanny's place.. feel kinda excited about new year.. dunno why..
i started my driving lesson again last wed.. i like this instructor... hopefully i'll pass! driving test is on march 16th.. gotta pass man.. if not when Dar goes army on April 8, nobody will fetch me :(
dunno how issit like when Dar goes army.. will i be lost? hmm.. been quarreling these few days.. because of work.. sigh..
sometimes i really HATE this kinda feeling.. if given me a choice again, i wouldn't wanna mix work and relationship.. i'm actually feeling quite numb now.. unsure how to describe the feeling, but i'm just afraid that the "special" kind of feeling will soon die off...
watever it is, all the best for me in the rooster year!
