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LOVE IS PATIENT & KIND:

IT IS NOT JEALOUS
OR CONCEITED
OR PROUD;

LOVE IS NOT ILL-MANNERED
OR SELFISH
OR IRRITABLE;

LOVE DOES NOT KEEP A RECORD OF WRONGS;

LOVE IS NOT HAPPY WITH THE EVIL BUT IS HAPPY WITH THE TRUTH.

LOVE NEVER GIVES UP;

AND ITS FAITH, HOPE & PATIENCE NEVER FAIL

1 CORINTIANS 13:4-7

LOVE NEVER FAILS....if it fails, it's not LOVE~
Love should be unconditional... God's Love is unconditional love, Mummy's Love is unconditional love.........

I'm feeling numb... Numb means...

1. Deprived of the power to feel or move normally; benumbed: toes numb with cold; too numb with fear to cry out.

2. Emotionally unresponsive; indifferent: numb to yet another appeal.

I'm dazed, detached, frozen, immobilized, paralyzed, senseless, stupefied, unconscious, unfeeling, uninterested, desensitize, stunned, crippled, disabled, softened, undermined, unstrengthened, water down, weakened, addled, amazed, astonished, astounded, bewildered, blinded, blured, confounded, dazzled, disordered, distracted, dizzy, dumbfounded, mixed up, muddled, mystified, overwhelmed, perplexed, petrified, puzzled, shocked, staggered, startled, surprised, apathetic, asleep, dormant, down, dull, idle, impotent, inactive, inanimate, indolent, listless, motionless, on ice, passive, powerless, quiescent, quiet, slack, sleepy, slothful, sluggard, sluggish, slumberous, static, still, stolid, torpid, unmoving, unreactive, unresponsive.....

-DEAD-

It's another brand new day..today seems special.. i feel the kinda thrill.. can't describe it.. oh well..

Supposed to teach piano today at 10am, but i overslept..nehneh, woke up at 935am..too late.. called up Mrs Yu and told her that my tooth is aching and i can't speak properly.. HEY! not lying leh..my tooth's really hurting and i can't speak properly..but can be understood lah..

and i'm supposed to go polyclinic to get referral letter today..i'm lazy.. i promise to get it tmr.. going to teach mikki piano tmr, 9am at florida..after tat then i'll make a trip down to hougang polyclinic..it's just near by..save up on transport...

I really gotta quit my habit of taking cabs.. i'm trying, but i can't leh.. everytime when i walk down my block.. walking to the bus stop, then i'll just stop by the road and my hand is uncontrollably flagging for cab *keke* wat to do?..been taking cab for years.. perhaps i should drive..but i failed my driving lahdey.. *bleah* Can consider my volkswagen pink beetle after i passed...weeEee~

Found that my wallet was 'ransacked' this morning when i woke up..it wasn't at it's usual place.. at it's usual neat position..my wallet's very neat by the way..but it's bulky.. suspected that my mom's trying to check how much's left in my wallet.. she's always worrying about me.. outta the 5 children she have, i guess i'm the one whom she's most worried and concern about..sigh.. i tried assuring her that i'm big enough to think for my own.. i guess i'm still a little apple in her eyes.. hmm..

At home the whole day today..except for dinner time...darling brought me out for dinner... It's good staying home..feeling the warmth of family once again...haven't been home for ages..has a good time talking to everyone in my family... watch tv from 7pm all the way till 10pm..haha..nice feeling..really..

And the weather's like super hot!!! can't stand it... feeling like walking around naked..argh.. and my tooth is aching like hell...but much better than previous nights.. my wisdom tooth is growing at the left lower jaw...right behind..and my jaw is too small for a new tooth...so.. sigh..it has to leave its home.. gotta go Hougang Polyclinic to get referal to Alexandra hospital for the surgery *sobz* my greatest phobia...injections!!! but no choice lah...once and for all.. not really very painful leh..can anyone understand my pain? was crying away the past few nights..waking up in the middle of the nights in tears.. but luckily i was at darling's house.. at least i get some comfort..haha~ then dar's mummy come in and peep at my swollen face when i was sleeping...then paste dunno wat yoko yoko white square plaster on my face.. looks stupid, but it really workds! haha.. then... today..i receive a call from dar's mummy, asking me about my tooth..haha.. it's comforting to know that she cares.. about my tooth..it's so intersting.. at least she understands..about my pain *sobz*

was playing the piano today..haven't touched it for so long.. i mean, i'm a piano teacher and i haven't touched the piano for months.. so ridiculous...wonder if i'll ever forget how to play..haha.. learning it for like ...er.. 15 years... who knows..hmm.. i play the piano for extremly long hours when i'm feeling down..or feeling happy...the 2 extremes...i can sit there for 1 hour++.... usually pop songs ...but dunno why today play classical pieces leh..haha..mozart...

and i'm suppose to go for lifeguard meeting today..haha..i'm alreay outta Ngee Ann Poly.. but.. wat to do? competition's on 18th July..and the girls in LG can't even form a team of 4! gotta go back...with LYNN! haha.. we better get gold again this year..and our record better remain! But i'm lazy to go back for training leh..dunno still can swim or not...scully a layer of oil floats up..OopS! say..if we win in the NUS competition, then maybe i consider going for the Nationals..haha.. i scared my record later break by someone else leh..haha..so, must go back and set a better record *blush*

Daddy just gave me the new Aranda Country Club new membership card..haha..it looks 10 times better than the old one...haha~ but i seldom use it also...

Tooth's aching...

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time to for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

It's friday...and i woke up having a tooth ache! my wisdom tooth is growing.. hurts like anything *sobz*

Darling woke up later again today..supposed to be in school by 830am, he woke up at 130pm..hahha~ always like that.. *sigh* i somehow feel that i'm the most "feeling-less" person to him.. though i'm rather expressive, but i somehow find it quite difficult to show care, love, and concern to the people who are the closest and dearest to me... in fact, i would be rather harsh on them.. is that considered love too? just in a different manner? perhaps to the people who are closer to me, i have higher expectation of them...hmmm.....

Went to Ivy Lee's house to teach Mikki piano yesterday, and she showed me some photos of their holidays, birthday parties...etc...wah, actress's life's really glamorous man...their daughter especially, live in limelight as well... i guess they are earning like dunno how many thousands a month..Good life man!..

haha~ Dar met with this stupid stranger.. that's bugging him 24hours around the clock.. *sigh* dunno whether to be happy for him, so sad for him..this guy's gonna bring alot more trouble in future man...well....

OH! and my dream phone..Nokia 7610... MUST get it in July..i dun care!

Waiting for Darling to bring me out for dinner.. think he'll reach here in 15mins' time..he drives so fast! *keke* Oh..did i mention that the Piano theory exams results were out? i sent 3 students for the theory exam, and all got distinction! yeah! their marks were 92, 95 and 96 respectively... i really felt so happy..a sense of achievement man! WeEee~

School's gonna reopen next week...and the best thing is that..i dun have to go back! haha~ graduate already mah... lalalla~ But i'm suppose to go back for lifeguard trainings on Mon and Wed evenings leh...coz competition is on..18th of July..sunday (if i'm not wrong)...at NUS... hmm... haven't swam for ages..not sure if i still can move across the water...hahaa~

Graduation ceremony in August..should i attend? quite silly leh...dress formal..then wait in the convention hall...then wait for long hours to pass by..then finally, my turn to go up stage to get my cert...then come down..that's it..ahha~ quite silly hor? see how lah..consider...

Die..darling's bday on 14th July..dunno wat to get for him leh..he got me Issey Miyake perfume..nice bottle with shades of blue and green...citric smell..keke...love it! Darling like need alot of things leh..sigh..he ah, the shoes spoiling...then he say cannot buy shoes.. aiyoh..he like dunno how to buy things for himself leh...nah, still got 2 weeks...shall see about it...

miss my mummy..haven't seen her for so long..i mean, when i'm home, she's asleep. When she's awake, i'm asleep...when she's home, i'm out. When she's out, i'm home... woke up this morning, mummy made breakfast for me..so touched.. i dunno, mixed feelings.. haven't felt like this for very long.. mummy loves me, and i love her too :)

Going hiking tmr..at bukit timah hill..haha~ sounds silly ya? going hikinh on a slope..oOPs...i mean, hill...ya.. ain't that bad lah, i'll be going with a bunch of fellas..it's gonna be enjoyable! weee~ shall update when i'm i'm back!

Darling says he's stressed in school... told me not to disturb him. He's also stressed when he's at home, told me not to disturb him.. hmm... he's honestly, straigh-forwardly told me that i'm too 'sticky' towards him..wah~ i was like...*speechless* it's the first time someone ever told me that...i mean, i didn't know i was that "sticky"..haha.. well, i can unstick myself... so, i just say that when he's stressed, put me aside...when he's free, then pick me up...

ain't feeling that good these days.. feeling so down... who understands? ...

wah...haven't blogged in here for so long! yeah! finally an official gradute from Ngee Ann Poly! Wee~ and i'm like so free now...trying to meet up whoever i haven't met in ages, and whoever wants to meet up with me...life hasn't been exactly smooth...everything seems to go wrong.. work, relationship, family, friends etc... starting to feel that my life is going down the drain.. never felt so helpless and useless before.. Goodness, wat has become of me.. Nah, nothing dramatic happened, just that it's not wat the way i expect things to turn out to be.

Darling's bday's in a months' time..dunno wat to get for him leh..shall crack my head for it..

BTW, i'm on a cabohydrate diet! means...i can't have rice, noodles, bread etc... for 2 months.. *keke* kinda exciting though...to see wat's gonna be the results in 2 months' time! haha~

It's a rainy night.. so cold..Mum's nagging at me again.. Just got back from Darling's house.. think i gotta stop staying over at his place already.. Mummy's not very happy already, been staying over at Dar's place almost every weekend..

Had a sumptous dinner with Dar's family..ate Chilli crab! WeEee~ wanted to 'ta bao' the gravy home, but Dar's mom say dun want..say if wanna eat, she'll cook for me! haha.. She's really a very good cook! Always have nice food around for me...and no wonder Dar's getting rounder and rounder..

Both my calves are hurting like shit..i duno why.. didn't exercise or anything leh, wonder why my muscles are hurting like shit! Haven't been sleeping well these days.. gonna wake till i wake up naturally tmr! *keke*

I make many new friends today.. and especialy Darren left the deepest impression on me.. he's so like me..i feel... He looks a little notorious, but he's actually quite shy *keke* Exchanged a few sms.. he said "Okay... I shall not disturb u anymore... May all e stars shine through ur nite... With all e angels protecting u by side... Heavenly Father pls bless her through her slp... And giv her e sweetest dream tonite..." SO sweet right? i mean.. seldom find someone who will send this kinda msg nowadays..keke.. Dar, dun be jealous k?! He knows i have a boyfriend...

Went to Jason's bday party last night..he's like so RED...drank too much le... Stef did put on weight..GeE~ when i got there, Alvin's gone home...so sad..haven't seen him in ages!

And competition's this sunday! haven't practised as a team yet man..dead..dun think i can make it this time...damn...