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The weather looks gloomy today.. dampens my mood a little.. Fanny had her practical exam today, and she came outta the exam room crying.. She's took stressed up.. Mummy stressed her too much..actually, she really tried her best, i heard her practising the piano early in the morning.. Well, she's grade 5 this year..i mean, for a 12 year old girl, it's really very good already..she'll be taking grade 8 in Sec3, that's a very out-standing result!

I can totally understand how she feels.. My mummy used to stress me alot when i was young.. took up so many classes; ballet, art, abacus, swimming, piano, drums etc...too many.. ultimately, i only stick to piano and swimming.. Thank God, i've completed my grade 8 two years back.. she nags at me everyday just to practise the piano, and when i failed my grade 6 and 7, my ears never had peace at all.. Mummy's just trying to push us to our limits, to perform our best..but mummy never know that all me and fanny wanted was just kind words of encouragement..that's all..

Well, if Fanny really fails her grade 5, guess i'll teach her instead..

Went to Lynn's 21st bday on Sat.. Dar supposed to go with me, but i just couldn't wake him up *argh* Anyhow, i got to watch my Harry Porter.. then stayed over at Dar's place..

I'm going for lifeguard training tonight! weeEeE~ get to swim again, after so long.. and most importantly, getting to meet all my friends again!

It's just another day.. i'm going cycling at east coast in 6 hour's time.. time to get moving man..i'm lazy! super Lazy... gee~ how? any remedies?

"Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must DO!" -Goethe

I know wat i'm supposd to do... i am willing to do..just that my body parts just doesn't seem to coordinate the way i want it to be..

It's Lynn's 21st tmr.. it's gonna be a fun-filled day tmr..with so many activities... cycling in the morning..till afternoon..then go home, wash up...go party! then.. go watch Harry Porter with Dar..midnight show i guess..then stay over at his place..

Still thinking whether to stay over though.. i dunno..suppose to let him be.. for the month of July, for him to concentrate on what he's supposed to do.. so hesitant *shit* wanna leave him alone, yet half of my being longs to be with him.. It somehow feels like a norm, to stay over at his house on weekends.. in fact, i'm not used to my own bed anymore..haha~

Jean has been really very sweet..and i really love her... She's like my 'Rich mom'..haha~ nice analogy..

Dar's bday in 11 day's time...dunno wat to get for him...neh neh.. i'm cracking my head..

I'm gonna meet alot of pple at Lynn's party tmr.. gee.. GIlbert, Jesslin, Shao Mei, Sheryl..and goodness knows who else! and next week's Jason's 21st..wah! even more pple to meet up.. those whom i haven't spoken with for months! michael, kevin, Stef, Charmain, Jason, Wen Han, Alvin..and so many more..

I'm going back for lifeguard traning the whole of next week..and the week after...coz competition's in 2 week's time! Haven't been in water for months!

I'm looking forward to meeting up with everyone again!...and my wisdom tooth! should i go for the surgery? i hate needles....

Sometimes i see a dream ahead
A dream I cannot hold
I dream of watching birds go by
Of flowers in the sky
But all that i can ever see
Are pictures in my mind
Surrounded by the misery
I wish that i could live behind

Somewhere inside my lonely heart
I see those pictures there
Of fields and forests, hills and vales
Where i can just run free
I'm waiting, watching, hoping
Looking for a sign
But all the I can see ahead
Are only pictures in my mind

Some day, somehow i hope we'll find
A place to call our own
Where we can watch the clouds roll by
In rainbow-coloured skies
I have a dream, a secret dream
Of a place that's ours alone
A land where we can wander free
A home a place for you and me

Just hold on to the dreams inside you
Trust in what the Lord can do
And some day soon you'll find
Those pictures in your mind
Will finally come true for you

Went Suntec to walk walk yesterday..interesting day..hmm... went Sembawang Dental to loan my tooth's X-ray from them..then went to redeem the Eng Wah points for 2 tickets...gonna watch Harry Porter on Saturday! Yipee! after so LoOoOoooOnG~

So irritating...Went back to Dar's place..and he left me there...he slept on the sofa from 8pm to 10pm..Bish.. fed him with logans that mummy bought, and he can chew with his eyes closed..piggy~ then i just sit there play computer and watch tv *hmph*

Today dar's mummy so funny..keep nagging and beating Dar.. asking him to treasure me *keke* it's hilarious..i mean.. i dunno how to explain.. then she called me..telling me to 'report' to her if Dar ever bullies me..wahhaha~ Dar's mummy really very nice.. very 'xian qi liang mu'..

And i'm supposed to annouce here that Dar' has ultra sensitive nipples *bleah*

*oOPs* anyway, i managed at last to post photo onto the blog.. i'm really bad at IT stuff man.. it's so cheem..it's alienated language makes me goggy..

Tried on my blades..and i 4got how to blade totally! *shit*

Yuling's asking me out to Zouk on thurs.. but my tooth cannot make it leh..later i go zouk with swollen face..like bear lydat..eecks.. i'll try though..

LOVE IS PATIENT & KIND:

IT IS NOT JEALOUS
OR CONCEITED
OR PROUD;

LOVE IS NOT ILL-MANNERED
OR SELFISH
OR IRRITABLE;

LOVE DOES NOT KEEP A RECORD OF WRONGS;

LOVE IS NOT HAPPY WITH THE EVIL BUT IS HAPPY WITH THE TRUTH.

LOVE NEVER GIVES UP;

AND ITS FAITH, HOPE & PATIENCE NEVER FAIL

1 CORINTIANS 13:4-7

LOVE NEVER FAILS....if it fails, it's not LOVE~
Love should be unconditional... God's Love is unconditional love, Mummy's Love is unconditional love.........

I'm feeling numb... Numb means...

1. Deprived of the power to feel or move normally; benumbed: toes numb with cold; too numb with fear to cry out.

2. Emotionally unresponsive; indifferent: numb to yet another appeal.

I'm dazed, detached, frozen, immobilized, paralyzed, senseless, stupefied, unconscious, unfeeling, uninterested, desensitize, stunned, crippled, disabled, softened, undermined, unstrengthened, water down, weakened, addled, amazed, astonished, astounded, bewildered, blinded, blured, confounded, dazzled, disordered, distracted, dizzy, dumbfounded, mixed up, muddled, mystified, overwhelmed, perplexed, petrified, puzzled, shocked, staggered, startled, surprised, apathetic, asleep, dormant, down, dull, idle, impotent, inactive, inanimate, indolent, listless, motionless, on ice, passive, powerless, quiescent, quiet, slack, sleepy, slothful, sluggard, sluggish, slumberous, static, still, stolid, torpid, unmoving, unreactive, unresponsive.....

-DEAD-

It's another brand new day..today seems special.. i feel the kinda thrill.. can't describe it.. oh well..

Supposed to teach piano today at 10am, but i overslept..nehneh, woke up at 935am..too late.. called up Mrs Yu and told her that my tooth is aching and i can't speak properly.. HEY! not lying leh..my tooth's really hurting and i can't speak properly..but can be understood lah..

and i'm supposed to go polyclinic to get referral letter today..i'm lazy.. i promise to get it tmr.. going to teach mikki piano tmr, 9am at florida..after tat then i'll make a trip down to hougang polyclinic..it's just near by..save up on transport...

I really gotta quit my habit of taking cabs.. i'm trying, but i can't leh.. everytime when i walk down my block.. walking to the bus stop, then i'll just stop by the road and my hand is uncontrollably flagging for cab *keke* wat to do?..been taking cab for years.. perhaps i should drive..but i failed my driving lahdey.. *bleah* Can consider my volkswagen pink beetle after i passed...weeEee~

Found that my wallet was 'ransacked' this morning when i woke up..it wasn't at it's usual place.. at it's usual neat position..my wallet's very neat by the way..but it's bulky.. suspected that my mom's trying to check how much's left in my wallet.. she's always worrying about me.. outta the 5 children she have, i guess i'm the one whom she's most worried and concern about..sigh.. i tried assuring her that i'm big enough to think for my own.. i guess i'm still a little apple in her eyes.. hmm..