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in Singapore... Toru...

Reached Changi Airport Terminal 1 at about 1230am.. their arrival time is 1:18am.. when we reached T1, we realised that there's no flight arriving at that time. Panicked.. we went to information counter.. and realised that they'll be at T3! Went to my car, drove to T3.. by the time we got there, it's like 1am already.. T3 is so new, and so empty.. there's only 3 flights arrival at T3 that day.. hee~ Hungry, Ernest and I looked for food...only Mac and TCC is available.. went for Mac.. i didn't order anything in the end, reckon that there won't be much time left to eat..

There's a glass panel, and you can actually see them coming down the escalator.. clearing the custom, collecting luggage..and finally, out! My aunt cleared custom very fast, as she's still holding the red passport.. she went to collect the luggage first. She was surprised to see us, and she didn't expect us to be there. Toru was snapping away with his camera at the customs.. if i were him, i would be pretty excited too!

My aunt and her boss came together with Toru. Her boss 'mama-san' will be heading to Furuma hotel, while i fetch aunt and Toru to grandparent's place. Surprisingly, their luggage altogether is less than Ernest's and my luggage when we came back from our Japan trip! yes, and Toru greeted us with "What's up"! *faint* he has this fetish for english slang.. like "What's up", "Hey dude/babe", "Jesus Christ", "Oh-my-gad"...etc...

The moment they stepped outta the lobby to my car, i hear "あつい"! means..hot! my grandparents and aunty was awake when we reach their place. Lingered around for awhile, and finally got home at 3am plus..

So tired.. diarrhoea this morning, didn't go for classes.. my dad will be bringing them around for today. I think.. i'm going to be so busy..

Some of our photos at the Airshow 2008! Had lotsa fun taking photos! Took some cranky shots, and even tried taking photos in mid-air! weEeeeEE~ Met up at about 8am (Supposedly 7am).. i slept at about 2am the day before and QC..4am!! was amazing how he actually stayed up to study.. while i was snoring away *oops* HMPH! (he said my snore was LOUD)! anyhow, parked at White Sands, and took a shuttle bus.. Thanks to Veron for cutting queue! i was feeling rather bad.. coz the queue's really very long.. then again, i think it should be fine..hee~

Very HOT! Glad i had my shades on.. was perspiring like anything..Stayed on for the show at 12:15..stood under the hot sun til 1:45pm.. however, this 1.5hours past really fast, coz the performance was really very very good! I like the first one best...by our F16s! Look at the "Heart" shape formed in the sky! Veron commented that the sky's like a big drawing board.. for them to draw whatever in the sky! All 3 of us had sun burn! our faces all turned red.. especially for QC..haha~ We went Dreamer's cafe at about 7pm and had our dinner there..listened to MONSTERs til about 1030pm, then we headed str8 home.. zonked-

...Complications.... Confusion... Uncertainty...
I have so many things on hand now, that i don't know how to handle..

Do my friends have time for me? Do they really know how I feel and what I really want? Has anyone ever listen to me attentively to what I have to share?

I need motivation too... not like "Oh, all the best"..etc... i need some care and concern...

That's it... PMS`

Totally freaked out when i saw this.. was randomly surfing net.. and i realised that all these photos are in my yahoo-group.. and i'm so freaking slim! i tell you..i must lose weight this year! anyway, i really miss those days back in lifesaving.. really.. it was like so carefree.. i miss the whole bunch of them!

Went for Dim sum with parents today.. together ah yee, dua gor po and dua gor diu.. hee~
I fetch them, and meet daddy there.. Supposed to meet at 130pm, but we reached at 1pm. I lost the namecard, supposed to call and reserve the table. So I went earlier, luckily there's table available! While waiting for daddy & mummy to come, i looked through the menu.. all so tempting.. and so hungry! finally, my parents arrived, and daddy told me to take order.. since all are so tempting, i told the waitress "每一样来一个".. haha..

after lunch, we lao yu sheng! it's the first time my family lao yu sheng..haha.. it was quite a fun experience though.. total bill : $142
It's cheap considering that there's 8 of us!
and... my dad strike 4D! my car number 0466...and guess what, i bought 4660! faintz!
and i received the sweetest gift today! since i always have sorethroat, i think this will come in handy!
initially i thot it was a plate or something, then i realised that it's for shower bath! Chocolate! how extravagant to wash your body with chocolate! woah~ thanks.. i love it! *muacks*

26 more days to my Violin exam and 28 more days to my theory exam. My first piece is like shit, 2nd piece go off tune, 3rd piece go off beat...needless to say, scales's gone case.. most confident in Aural..haha~ and.. haven't even finish one exam paper yet.. help~

Eileen & Ben went back to Aussie already, and I'm starting to miss them.. help~

work from 9am to 9pm almost everyday! sleep an average of 5 hours everyday.. help~

after a long break..finally, back to work.. so much stuff to do this month and next.. till i dunno where to begin and i wonder if i can survive all these stuff.. the thought of it makes my head spin.. all stress will end on 24th March.. please pray for me..

Had mahjong sessions over the new year.. i guess, out next mahjong session will be held next year..hee~

Had a good chat with Eileen at Mac after mahjong session.. we chatted for like over an hour..and reached home only at 830am.. i'm really gonna miss Ben & Eileen.. i think they're the only ones that i can really talk heart to heart with.. like.. just tell them stuff and i won't feel insecure kinda feeling.. I'M SO SAD.. they're going back.. 3 more days..

三公分阳光
三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情
剩下只有脚印

一直向前走
走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事
帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以
住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾
用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

感谢我不可以
住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾
用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
不用你回头看
不用珍惜

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
如果你回头看
不用在意

Started with dinner at Nanny's place on New year's eve.. as usual, my parents went to Malaysia to visit my paternal grandparents..didn't tag along.. well, my parents are not the chinese traditaionl kinda pple.. so i can't really recall when's my last reunion dinner with them..probably 7 years ago.. somehow, i would still wanna have a proper reunion dinner with them.. next sunday probably.. was fascinated by this 'pineappy' at my nanny's place.. this is so interesting..haha.. it was given to them by the boss...
It's jelly! it tastes exactly like mandarin orange! wanted to put it back..couldn't bear to eat it.. but nanny say might as well eat it.. can't keep for long also..
so.. Fanny and i took one each.. now the pineapple looks incomplete :(

Went to maternal grandparent's place on the first day of Chinese New Year.. went there for lunch.. it's a pity i didn't take any pictures.. too much food and catching up to do.. went on to nanny's place again in the late afternoon.. and have dinner there.. and the following day, visited all other relatives..

All in all, i realised that i have so many relatives.. however distant they may seem, we're still very much related to each other by blood. I'm glad i met some of them that i've never seen before.. or rather, they've seen me when i was younger, but i can't recognise them at all.. hee~

Of course, being the 'eldest' grand-daughter on maternal side of family, i kinda feel the pressure.. the pressure to excel in all areas.. in terms of studies, love, health, and...money. I will have to complete my music studies no matter wat..and a degree.. and maintain good health.. and earn more money.. and get married soon..haha~ so many things to achieve.. and it's amazing that some super long distant relatives that I never see the whole year can know so much about me.. i wonder who's providing all the latest updates..

Every year, i feel the same kinda pressure.. it's like an AGM(Annual General Meeting).. when all relatives gather, i must be better than who i was the year before. I seriously think, by next year.. they'll expect me to change to a bigger car, higher income, and a husband.. and i think, my husband will face the same pressure too..haha~ too bad.. not so soon... but i seriously feel a little heavy-hearted when my nanny told me that they might not live till the day i get married.. i tell you, my heart sank immediately.. they're almost 80.. i sincerely prayed that they'll live till that day..

i think..it'll be an exciting year ahead.. with many challenges and hurdles for me to overcome. It'll be a year of many changes with cross roads..

I'll walk by faith.

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart

Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to
hide my heart
And what I believe in

But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must
be free to fly
That burns with a need
to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

Our yearly trip to JB! ..for only one purpose.. food! the last time we went in was in 2006 Dec... now that Ben & Eileen's back for holiday, we organised a trip into JB for food! Eileen and I.. sadly, many did not turn up.. nevertheless, it was nice and warm with the small group :)
QC & I.. while waiting for food.. the other time we came, he had braces on already.. this time it's still on.. it'll probably be taken out next year?!~ 6 of us who were present.. Ben, YJ, Veron, QC, Eileen and I~
look at how we devoured the food.. it's scary isn't it.. of course, we had our 2nd round of HeBo.. a bit too much though.. total bill amounts up to about 250ringget..
This is a classic photo to be taken every year.. this was taken this year..
and this was taken last year! will continue to take it the next year.. or on the next trip to JB! hee~

Kaylea made this muffin for me! This is the sweetest thing i've ever recieved from my student! i mean.. though i know that the muffin's made by her mom..but.. she said she did the decoration :) don't you think that white, purple and pink just compliment each other so well! There's even a semiquaver at the top.. it's still in my fridge..i really can't bear to eat it :( how? tell me how!

Congrats... to QC! for passing his Lifesaving 1,2,3! weEeeeEE! one more BM to go..and that's it! well.. i'm so happy that he made it till here.. it's about 1/4 way thru already.. jia yoU! ok..i know..sculling.. haha~

Chinese new year is approaching.. somehow, it seems a little different this year.. hmm.. i think i know why..