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It's a very very hot afternoon! and i just got home..went to meet darling at sembawang mrt station...then took a free shuttle bus to sembawang shopping centre just to buy a 90cents battery water for his car...and we took the wrong shuttle bus back.......lala...lele....lolo....we spent almost 2 hours touring yishun/sembawang *bleah*

Darling has been very sweet...came my house with breakfast...when i open my eyes, the first person i see is him *wink* haven't ate breakfast in ages...and i had bacon, egg, fries, bee hoon..e.t.c......weeEee~

Time with Dar' just passes by like.....like....aeroplane? er...wat's faster than aeroplane? ahha~ it's scary...been together for about 19 days...since 29th March 2004....and he's really been very nice...the nicest Dar' ever...It's really scary coz, if he's gonna leave me...i dunno wat i can do...i'm like so dependant on him now...Make me seem like some 'xiao nu ren' hor? *keke*

oh....and 19 days to graduation! and i'll be outta NP...into the world out there...probably can't get into SMU...i feel....think i'll apply for SIM when my results are out

It's a lie that i said i dun mind....that i'm not unhappy...about the fact that i feel like a mistress *haha* sounds funny hor? there are so many factors to consider..but dunno why leh, everytime when this matter arises, i feel really agitated and uneasy about it..and my mood just changes like...a burst of bubble..can't be helped..really...i also have no idea what to do abt it...so, anything that DaR' decides, i just listen and follow loh, though i may throw tantrums lah...

i feel my project mates are starting to have this 'barrier' between me and themselves...they feel that i haven't been contributing much to the group, that i always have music lessons in the evening...perhaps, they may think that it's excuses for leaving early...but it's not...i do really have lessons in the evening...i feel, each and everyone's priority in life is different, and mine is to earn money...their's is perhaps to get the best grades ever...i feel, i've done wat i can, all the work that is allocated to me...just that, i'm not WITH the group whenever, and wherever they are....is my presence there really important where i can produce the work i'm suppose to do on time? they really should consider from my point of view...ya, they may be rich...come from rich family....get all the money they wan...but i gotta work to get the money alrite....ArGh~ but then again, i admit that i'm at fault too lah... perhaps they feel that i should be part of the team, and not act alone..

i'm still very skeptical about my relationship with Dar'...dunno how long it'll last, coz i'm really a difficult gal to handle...emotionally......hope he has the patience to keep up with me...