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26 more days to my Violin exam and 28 more days to my theory exam. My first piece is like shit, 2nd piece go off tune, 3rd piece go off beat...needless to say, scales's gone case.. most confident in Aural..haha~ and.. haven't even finish one exam paper yet.. help~

Eileen & Ben went back to Aussie already, and I'm starting to miss them.. help~

work from 9am to 9pm almost everyday! sleep an average of 5 hours everyday.. help~

after a long break..finally, back to work.. so much stuff to do this month and next.. till i dunno where to begin and i wonder if i can survive all these stuff.. the thought of it makes my head spin.. all stress will end on 24th March.. please pray for me..

Had mahjong sessions over the new year.. i guess, out next mahjong session will be held next year..hee~

Had a good chat with Eileen at Mac after mahjong session.. we chatted for like over an hour..and reached home only at 830am.. i'm really gonna miss Ben & Eileen.. i think they're the only ones that i can really talk heart to heart with.. like.. just tell them stuff and i won't feel insecure kinda feeling.. I'M SO SAD.. they're going back.. 3 more days..

三公分阳光
三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情
剩下只有脚印

一直向前走
走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事
帮我困住自己

你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近

感谢我不可以
住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾
用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
不用你回头看
不用珍惜

我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

感谢我不可以
住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾
用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
不用你回头看
不用珍惜

感谢我不可以
拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落
如果你回头看
不用在意

Started with dinner at Nanny's place on New year's eve.. as usual, my parents went to Malaysia to visit my paternal grandparents..didn't tag along.. well, my parents are not the chinese traditaionl kinda pple.. so i can't really recall when's my last reunion dinner with them..probably 7 years ago.. somehow, i would still wanna have a proper reunion dinner with them.. next sunday probably.. was fascinated by this 'pineappy' at my nanny's place.. this is so interesting..haha.. it was given to them by the boss...
It's jelly! it tastes exactly like mandarin orange! wanted to put it back..couldn't bear to eat it.. but nanny say might as well eat it.. can't keep for long also..
so.. Fanny and i took one each.. now the pineapple looks incomplete :(

Went to maternal grandparent's place on the first day of Chinese New Year.. went there for lunch.. it's a pity i didn't take any pictures.. too much food and catching up to do.. went on to nanny's place again in the late afternoon.. and have dinner there.. and the following day, visited all other relatives..

All in all, i realised that i have so many relatives.. however distant they may seem, we're still very much related to each other by blood. I'm glad i met some of them that i've never seen before.. or rather, they've seen me when i was younger, but i can't recognise them at all.. hee~

Of course, being the 'eldest' grand-daughter on maternal side of family, i kinda feel the pressure.. the pressure to excel in all areas.. in terms of studies, love, health, and...money. I will have to complete my music studies no matter wat..and a degree.. and maintain good health.. and earn more money.. and get married soon..haha~ so many things to achieve.. and it's amazing that some super long distant relatives that I never see the whole year can know so much about me.. i wonder who's providing all the latest updates..

Every year, i feel the same kinda pressure.. it's like an AGM(Annual General Meeting).. when all relatives gather, i must be better than who i was the year before. I seriously think, by next year.. they'll expect me to change to a bigger car, higher income, and a husband.. and i think, my husband will face the same pressure too..haha~ too bad.. not so soon... but i seriously feel a little heavy-hearted when my nanny told me that they might not live till the day i get married.. i tell you, my heart sank immediately.. they're almost 80.. i sincerely prayed that they'll live till that day..

i think..it'll be an exciting year ahead.. with many challenges and hurdles for me to overcome. It'll be a year of many changes with cross roads..

I'll walk by faith.

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart

Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to
hide my heart
And what I believe in

But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must
be free to fly
That burns with a need
to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

Our yearly trip to JB! ..for only one purpose.. food! the last time we went in was in 2006 Dec... now that Ben & Eileen's back for holiday, we organised a trip into JB for food! Eileen and I.. sadly, many did not turn up.. nevertheless, it was nice and warm with the small group :)
QC & I.. while waiting for food.. the other time we came, he had braces on already.. this time it's still on.. it'll probably be taken out next year?!~ 6 of us who were present.. Ben, YJ, Veron, QC, Eileen and I~
look at how we devoured the food.. it's scary isn't it.. of course, we had our 2nd round of HeBo.. a bit too much though.. total bill amounts up to about 250ringget..
This is a classic photo to be taken every year.. this was taken this year..
and this was taken last year! will continue to take it the next year.. or on the next trip to JB! hee~

Kaylea made this muffin for me! This is the sweetest thing i've ever recieved from my student! i mean.. though i know that the muffin's made by her mom..but.. she said she did the decoration :) don't you think that white, purple and pink just compliment each other so well! There's even a semiquaver at the top.. it's still in my fridge..i really can't bear to eat it :( how? tell me how!

Congrats... to QC! for passing his Lifesaving 1,2,3! weEeeeEE! one more BM to go..and that's it! well.. i'm so happy that he made it till here.. it's about 1/4 way thru already.. jia yoU! ok..i know..sculling.. haha~

Chinese new year is approaching.. somehow, it seems a little different this year.. hmm.. i think i know why..