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can you imagine i run around the whole day like xiao char bor.. just for my room.. my bed finally arrived today.. and i've been packing til now.. my air con's full blast at 17 degress the whole day..because it's freaking hot!

i would say it's pretty ok now.. i need to freaking paint 3 more walls..after my 3 walls, i'm gonna get a new tv..that's my doodad for the month of april..

To my best friend : Happy Swimming! it's Monday blues! (with me around, it'll be pink!)

I used to think money is the most important factor in life.. i was 17 at that time.. i slog like anything till what i'm earning today.. till 2 years ago.. when i realised that, money isn't that important after all.. family and human relationships are more valuable.. but now, i think.. money still talks.. very loudly~

I used money today to buy tangible and intangible stuff..

The power of money~

I'm really glad that you came and help me today.. without you, I wouldn't have accomplished so much stuff.. and though my dad's van beeps at 60km/h, you managed to fetch me around.. raining somemore! Thanks for your time.. i appreciate it alot. I know I can count on you whenever i need help.. Thank you~

The last time I ever hop onto a bike was 5 years ago.. it's been so long.. till i forgot how to fasten my helmet.. bike at 60km/h is enough to get me screaming and pulling clothes.. after like dunno how long, finally got use to it.. 80km/h to 100km/h isn't that bad after all.. just need to hug tighter, to make sure i won't fly off! came to pick me at about 10pm.. went to siglap for dessert.. so far right! stay north, go to east for dessert. Drank lychee ice and he ate noodles.. and toast.. dunno why, i dun feel like eating anything.. stayed on and chat and reached home at about 2am.. can tell he's very very tired..eyes all red..

One very very bad thing about taking bike is that.. my hair's all tangled! argh..forgot to tie it up loh.. then he told me to like twist them and tuck them into my jacket..still.. tangled..but better than never tuck in lah.. i came back home to comb my hair.. i tell you.. my floor's filled with hair now.. i'm going to condition it thoroughly tomorrow..

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I moved outta home when i was 19.. so it's been like 5 years on my own.. the reason why i moved out was because of an issue with BLOG. it seems like i often get into trouble with BLOGs..

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readers who have been following up with whatever i'm writing.. ya, THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH for YOUR concern.

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1) Servicing..changing of oil and spark plugs
2) Change timing belt
3) Repair my car door + spray paint
4) Punctured tire
5) Road Tax
6) Insurance
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It's gonna cost me $2000. *faint*
and i just spent $800 yesterday.
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I'm going out..... now.....
gonna leave my car alone.

it's needs rest too.. like me~

Woke up feeling so refreshed! because i slept for 8 hours! it's been a long time since i slept for such long hours..

Maybe because..one side of my wall in pink! I'm gonna make it 2 today! Any helpers? so sad.. Ben and Eileen in Taz.. if not they'll come help me..

and when my bed finally arrives, i want Veron to be the first to sleep with me!

miss miss~

is arriving on sunday.....

I finally bought it. I'm crazy. I held the invoice in my hand..pondered for a solid 10 mins.. when i finally decided to pay at the counter.

i need retail therapy.

Ostentatious might be the word to use here.

Painted my room pink, ya..one side of the wall only. I'm getting rid of everything in my room. except my piano.

Give me one month.

Everything will change.

really matter anymore.

You don't remember it,
that means you don't mean it.

Answered or Un-answered.
Understood or Un-understood.

I Give Up.

Period.

Our degree of friendship will probably differ after you finally found your other half.

It is rather impossible for a girl & guy to maintain such close friendship without getting into trouble with our other halves. (No matter how deep the trust is). But it IS possible to maintain the same degree of friendship with friends of the same gender.

I'm starting to miss you already. Really.

1. I won't be able to call you everyday, as and when I like to.
2. My handphone bill will drop from $150 to less than $100 a month.
3. When I call, you won't recognise my voice anymore.
4. Don't think we can swim so often together either.
5. You won't wait with me for the wave at the wave pool for almost an hour.
6. You'll be too lazy to go to the lazy pool.
7. I'll not be able to sit in your Honda front passenger seat.
8. It'll be weird if you drive my car.
9. You won't be passing my comb to me anymore.
10. We will never have the chance to visit TUAS. haha~
11. You'll not need to check weather forecast too~
12. You'll not hear me whine the day before my swimming class.
13. I'll not hear you whine the day before your swimming class.
14. I can't sit beside you during gatherings.
15. Then I cannot steal your food, and you can't finish my food for me.
16. I cannot share drinks with you.
17. I'm not the one choosing your interview clothes & ties at G2000 the day before.
18. No more late night Mustafa watch hunting.
19. No more solitary time with you.
20. No more duets with you at KTV.
21. Then it'll be my turn to 青一色
22. Ultimately, i won't even wanna K anymore.
23. You got to learn Butterfly on your own.
24. Backstroke too.
25. Correction of freestyle also.
26. Can't video for each other the way we swim.
27. I'll be walking alone in IKEA.
28. You'll team up and trash me in DOTA
29. Command & Conquer too.
30. WAH-jong also.
31. You'll guard me like siao during Mahjong.
32. Can't play 王力宏 song on my piano.
33. When you make mistakes, I will not tell you..haha~
34. Your Adidas White jacket will be replaced by a new one.
35. It may just turn Black over night.
36. Wallet will be replaced too.
37. oh man! probably IPOD also.
38. Hur hur.. blue carebear blanket's not in use anymore.
39. Then my pink carebear blanket must put away in store.
40. We'll soon not be able to remember each other's HP number by heart.
41. Gotta scroll to Phone Book to search for my name.
42. In times of need, my number will not be the number to dail.
43. No more shampoo and body foam refill.
44. You will continue to store shampoo and body foam in puny contact lens case.
45. Won't be able to use my dunno-left-how-much Loreal styling spray.
46. The BIG bottle of contact lens solution at my place will soon expire.
47. We'll never have the chance to eat SEAFOOD PLATTER FOR TWO at FISH & CO.
48. Must top up 2 combo meals instead of sharing one bowl of soup & a cup of drink.
49. Can't exchange goggles to wear.
50. Can't smell the perfume on your shirt anymore.
51. The perfume you use won't be the one I gave.
52. We won't be jumping in photos anymore.
53. We will be in "Ser-Di-Yah" position.
54. The next time I do friendship test, I won't be getting full marks anymore.
55. And I've yet to claim my ice-cream prize from you.
56. I will soon forget your mole is on which side of your face.
57. And how many pairs of jeans you actually own.
58. You might change to a new brand of boxers.
59. You may be wearing briefs by then.
60. Conversation over the phone will be less than 1 min instead of hours.
61. I won't be able to hear your husky voice in early morning.
62. You'll not buy earrings for me anymore.
63. Anklets too.
64. I'm not the one beside you in photos.
65. Can't share my deepest secrets with you.
66. No more sitting on my bean bag eating MAC.
67. Won't be watching my TV too, unless you buy it from me~
68. I can't hug you anymore.
69. No more crazy meet ups in wee hours.
70. I will not recognise the route to your house anymore.
71. Won't be in the same team when we go bowling.
72. You'll not receive any phone calls from me whenever I travel.
73. The post card collection will stop.
74. I won't have the extra cookies when we eat Subway.
75. I can never finish my Chawanmushi.
76. You have no sunglasses to wear at the Airshow, then you cannot see anything.
77. No more staying over at my place.
78. Can't touch your muscles anymore.
79. Your hair also.
80. And your stomach muscles.
81. No more TYR discounts for you.
82. Whenever I cry, I can't call you anymore.
83. I can't whine.
84. I have to be watchful of my every single action and words.
85. Can't talk to you and disturb you during movies.
86. You won't be sharing Nachos and Popcorn with me.
87. Can't steal your jacket to wear anymore.
88. Your cap too.
89. I won't be able to crash your lectures anymore.
90. Then I will not know more about Albert Einstein.
91. No more supper.
92. We'll both lose weight then.(Bad for you, Good for me)
93. I have to change your photo in my HP to a more decent one.
94. Ringone too.
95. We haven't pluck eyebrows yet~
96. Nor have we gone on a holiday together.
97. No more shopping together.
98. I miss you.
99. I miss you.
100.I miss you.

aye.. did i make it sound like we're dying or something? hee~

Actually these are the reasons why I would rather stay half-less till your other half is found. Because I am gonna be so not used to any drastic change. It is going to be drastic because we've been so close for almost a year(and for dunno how long more). It's complicating, I dunno how to explain.

I think I'm a selfish friend. I don't really wanna share you with other friends. I want your free time for myself. Whenever you have goodies, I want you to think of me first and give them to me! Of course, when you have any troubles or wearies, I want to be the first one in your mind. I'm going to 'so-don't-like' your other half, so don't bother introducing her to me.

Then again, after a few years, who knows what's gonna happen.. just come back to this very entry and have a good laugh over it.

Do you actually remember what you've said?
And.. Do you really meant what you've said?

I want an a.n.s.w.e.r

92 words

Speed test

Not every question have an answer...

There are some things i don't really know(but i really want to know),
And i guess i'll never know.

I cannot expect people around me to understand everything inside of me,
Thus, they can't expect me to know everything of them.

Somehow, sometimes, I hope they ask me so that they will understand,
Somehow, sometimes, I hope they DON't ask me, BUT still understand.

So what if they finally understood?

Then they'll pretend they don't understand. (and I know when they pretend)
Or, they'll pretend they understood. (but in actual fact, they don't)

Haha..when they finally understood me, I will pretend that they don't understand AT ALL.

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I really wish to have some answers.
But I'll just have to let it go.
The cycle repeats whenever i have another question unanswered.
It's too difficult to understand the opinion of others.(it can't be over-looked either)

I will continue to run..
Unanswered.

my diarrhoea lasted 4 days.. thurs, fri, sat and today! twice today.. sobz.. should i like go visit a doctor? seems like i'll need to visit the toilet everytime i have a meal.. *cry* hopefully i'll be ok tomorrow!

woke up at 10am today..snooze til 1030am.. went for Ah Du's lesson.. worked on the song 我真的受伤了.. my chords and stuff are ok, gotta work on the expression.. He talked about how to give my playing MORE feel..
1) Melody
2) Rhythm
3) Dynamics
4) Tempo
These are the 4 things to look out for.. thereafter, i was told to play this again.. this time adding these 4 important points to what i play.

So, my homework next week is.. to play and sing 我真的受伤了. He's gonna teach me vocal next week *faint* and i told him 爱很简单 is very boring, but no choice.. gotta play it still.. and this week's new song to work on is 遗失的美好..

After lesson, I brought aunt and uncle out for lunch at Thai Expess at Junction 8. I think they are very happy. the last time I brought them out was national day last year.. i think they feel the pinch in eating at restaurants, they're really thrifty people.. i told them, it's once in a long while.. it's not like i'm treating them everyday. I ordered ilke 5 dishes, and i think they enjoyed the food thoroughly! that makes my day! Went to shop around with aunt... and we got home about 4plus..

I started to work on the songs that Ah Du gave me.. i sing for like half an hour.. till my throat is so sore loh. Tried recording, but sounded so horrible..not feelings leh.. then decided to take a break at WaWa.. haha~ met QC online, then decided to meet for a swim together!

Travelled down to Jurong since he has no car.. went Jurong East to swim.. reached at about 550pm..did our 10 laps alternate breast-free..this time, continuous! Then, i psycho-ed him to go to the wave pool with me.. i like it alot alot! haha.. i MUST go there whenever i go jurong pool..keke.. we waited for like 1/2 hr to 45mins for the wave can! dunno why so long.. but we were floating around, swimming, correcting strokes, chatting...but the time we finished, it's already 720pm! spent like one hour at the wave pool... too late for the lazy pool, did last lap free at deep pool, then bathe..

Went dinner at Fish & Co. Jurong Point...where i think both of us got a little looney..skip the details..after walking around for awhile, then home sweet home.

I"m gonna crash his lecture tmr.. 2 lectures! so fun! i'm gonna bring my lappie to WaWa.. then swim at NUS pool..then WaWa.. weEeEeee~

I was once again reminded of God's unconditional love for me. This song never fails to leave tears in my eyes.

Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what you're worth

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all
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Just let me say, how much I love you~

it's a new generation's lingo.. E.M.O

that's what i'm feeling.. you know, when you're too free.. your mind starts to wander.. ya, i admit.. i'm very free(this week).. everyone around me gets e.m.o and i'll get affected..

especially this friend of mine.. after reading her blog, i know that she is going thru many things in her life right now.. i really wanna talk to her, but i'm not sure if it's a good time.. i'm just gonna drop her a msg.. if she's cool, she'll probably reply me and perhaps we can meal together..

and shit me.. i fall into 'traps' darn easily.. traps : sweet + gentlemanly opposite gender. I call it 'traps' because it catches me unaware..then i fall into it.. trying to squirm outta it..

1. Can Drink.
*Her can of green tea arrived.. right infront of her .. just when her hand is about to reach it, OG(opposite gender) took it and opened it. Literally stunned for a few seconds. Simple gesture, I sincerely urge ALL opposite genders to do this simple gesture to your girl.friends and girlfriends..

2. Escalator
* OG offered her to go onto the ascending escalator first. Upon descending, OG goes first. Simple logic.. to catch her when she falls.. Oh man.. #Overwhelmed#

3. Routes
* Be so observant about the pathways so that water puddles would not be tread upon. *faint*

4. Time
* Run & Perspire, got her a drink.. ran because...she is waiting in the car. ^Touched^

5. Appreciate
* End the day by saying "Thank you, I had a wonderful time. I hope you had a wonderful time too!" =Speechless=
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had diarrhoea.. on thursday..4 times... today 3 times.. tomorrow will probably be 2 times.. then the day after tmr 1 time..then end.

i'm feeling quite sane, just that i'm feeling so lethargic.. like there's no energy in my limbs..

thanks to lorraine, accompany me til I level up! wawa til wee hours.. then woke up at 1130am.. went to nanny's place for lunch.. then to amk hub with 2 aunties to walk around.. came back to home to rest..then to veron's house for dinner.

I took photos!...but! i accidently! deleted! all! of! them! what an IDO...... wanted to bluetooth the photos to my com..but i press delete instead of send.. argh..think i'm still not so used to the touch screen function of my phone..(Ben, no photos for you. i purposely told all of them to pose for YOU to see...but...)

thank you QC for driving me.. if i drove, i would have slept in the car man.. anyway, wanna tell you to strive on for 30++ more days..and it'll be over.. it's the time of the year semester again.. Veron too.. do your homework.. and i love you so much for feeding me almost every weekend.. *muacks*

I'm expecting a mail today from Aussie.. wanted to wait faithfully at home..ya, but til 5pm, it never arrive :( then..i went out.. and when i reached home..i found this! hee~
i'm so excited..because Ben told me i will like it alot.. and ...i ripped it open immediately! haha..
ta-da! my musical box collection! woah! swan lake!

recorded it with my w960!
this is my collection.. i bought "over the rainbow" myself.. then wooden box was from a student and swan lake by Ben and Eileen! thanks!

Anyway, they included a postcard too... and dearest Ben & Eileen.. i wanna announce something.. my birthday is on 21st MAY!!! hee~ so.. if you've mistaken it to be March, it's totally fine! because when the month of May comes, i expect another musical box! weEeEeEE~

Thank you for 'Swan Lake' and thank you in advance for the next musical box!

*muacks*

supposed to have a swimming class today, but cancelled due to bad weather..

Ben said my blog is not detailed enough.. so, i will have to try to make my entry today as DETAILED as possible!

woke up at 830am today.. went to teach 2 girls.. Gwennie and Belinda.. both stay in Woodlands.. taught them from 9am to 11am.. then went home to rest for awhile.. then meet my brother and 2 other friends for lunch..we went AMK hub for lunch..wanted to lunch at Ah Mei's cafe.. but Jastin don't like oily malay food, so we went food court instead.. i ate thai style chicken with rice.. plus an egg! Brother ate beef noodles soup, Welson and Jastin ate XO Bar Chor Mee...--->> (Ben, detailed enough? haha)

Welson and I are going for a concert this Sat at 530pm i think, he said meet at 4pm..then he asked if i'm free the whole sat, he asked me to go with him to peninsular plaza to buy soccer shoes.. as his was stolen.. the shoes has sentimental value.. coz his EX-gf went to buy it together with him at peninsular plaza..

after lunch, i went to Sony Ericsson to buy my bluetooth car speaker at Sony Ericsson.. AMK Hub Basement. got it at $150..member's price! Welson & Jastin went with me while Ernest shops for his detergent at NTUC.. While Ernest shops for his stuff, Welson & I roamed around NTUC..til he suggested buying 4D number together.. er.. ya, i dunno what is 大and小.. so he shade the thingy for me.. bought 4660 and 0466.. ya..my car number.. $2 each.. Sat & Sun.. i keep the lottery ticket..so..i get all the money! weeEeEeee~

went home after lunch to pack my room.. it's very very messy.. then, played piano, rest, and went to teach 2 more students.. Wendy and Fannie.. from 4pm to 6pm.. suppose to teach swimming at 6pm, but student cancelled..too cold.. BUT, QC and I still met up for a swim. He came down from Kembangan after his tuition to woodlands..then we went woodlands SC to swim.. did 10 laps of alternate breast-free.. and 10 more laps of breast in the timing of about 12mins.. not bad leh.. relaxed one summore.. i think he can swim rather well..and ya, his chest is getting abit bigger..abit of shape.. quite hard..managed to poke it a few times...haha ---->>(Ben...detailed?)

after swimming, we went causeway point for dinner.. wanted to eat KFC, but went Pasta Mania instead. I ate Prawn Aglio and he ate some baked pasta... soup of the day was cream of tomato and minestrone.. we didn't want any of it.. and dun want too much garlic bread, so we share combo 3.. top up 30 cents to large sprite.. so we shared the sprite and 3 pieces of garlic bread.. well, he finished like 7/8 of the drink..leaving 4-5 mouthful and ice.. --->>(Ben..detailed hor?)

Thereafter, we went to walk around causeway point.. QC has been wanting to buy clothes these days.. can't find anything.. went pasar malam to walk walk.. bought stickers and tutu cake.. then walked around.. humming/singing songs as we walked and stopping by some ah peh auction and laugh really hard at them.. they're auctioning teapots..haha.. QC said he make a better auctioner!
head starts to spin.. start making our way to carpark.. that bottomless-stomach QC wants to buy eno at cold storage and chips.. and i made him buy sweets for me.. there he went on ranting on how i caused his bankruptcy by buying earrings and sweets for me.. duh.. QC drove himself home and i drove myself home after that..

then now i'm home..chatting with Ben...who say my blog is not detailed enough.. bleah!

finally.. after an eventful week.. Rest is all i need.

one word to decribe my 2 exams last week.. s.u.c.k
i can't be bothered with my results(2 months later).. coz i already know what they'll be like.. BUT, i do believe in miracles.. check out my blog 2 months later..

finally met up to swim with Charmain & Jason at Clementi SC..i really didn't expect them to be there,i'm so happy! hopefully this will go on as long as i hope it would be! Veron came along to swim with me! so nice of her.. she can really swim man!

i heard some stuff from WJJ earlier on.. kinda know it already, but got a slightly more detailed and updated stuff from him.. disturbed.

bought a pair of chopsticks for veroni today.. and a pyjamas! from giodano.. 2 for $30.. it not really at pyjamas..it's actually a dress, but i'll probably wear it to sleep.. VERON! must wear it oK!

bought my sony ericsson w960 on sunday.. all in all, i paid $33 for that $888 phone! woah!

Last of all, my IKEA HERMES Bed! damn.. i tell you, i can go on cursing and swearing.. i dun wanna talk about it again.. in summary, i didn't get to buy my bed at $595(it's $795 now!!!)because of a stupid salesgirl and i'm so f**king angry with her.. i felt so cheated! i cried.. ya.. cannot contain my anger anymore! called Veron, but she's having lecture..then i called QC..called him and cried.. think he freaked out.. after that i feel damn paiseh loh.. i think the last time i cried, i also called him..

anyway, i'm glad i have these 2 goodie friends.. thanx Veron for cursing at that salesgirls with me & QC.. for that earring that make you so 'BROKE' that you can't afford 'ANYTHING' after that.

Numerous events..

Today's a long and tiring day. Thanks to Viwawa. I freaking slept at 6am! and woke up at 10am.. i dunno why..somehow, i dun feel like sleeping.. bought 2 phones today.. one for Toru, one for Aunt. Aunt's first colour phone, and Toru's first phone in Singapore! Following that, went AMK to teach Jerica, then went to Iris's house to practise violin. I dunno why, I'm not in the mood at all to practise. played Grande valse brillante like 5 times and Rumba about 4 times.. and freaking Germand Dance twice. Sounded like shit.. I have a problem with Beethoven. I can't play his pieces! last year's Minuet in G sucks too.. by Beethoven of course.. argh.. I sincerely hope i'll pull thru tmr's final rehearsal with my violin teacher at Iris's place.. Thanks girl for the marshmallow.. did perked me up a little..

rushed for dinner.. was surprised by the no. of relatives that turned up. I know who's coming and all.. but when all turned up, it was really quite a number.. as usual, dad ordered i think..8 course dinner.. then dimsum.. then followed by cake-cutting.. I hope everyone is happy today. It's also the first time my friends came to join in my family dinner! hee~ Valerie can really get along with Toru wor..tsk tsk.. Veron and YJ came too.. QC decided to join us last min :)
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Went IT Fair yesterday.

Bought myself a BROTHER printer for $88! so happy with my purchase! comes with one whole set of ink! so very worth it! and of course.. free trolley! haha.. with nanny now.. it was really very crowded.. Veron finally bought her lappie.. NEC.. quite a good buy...(At this very moment, she might be meddling with her new toy). Valerie, Veron, Ernest and Toru met up first. They went to Kino to buy books.. then go to Suntec. by the time i reached Suntec, it was 815pm already. Qc joined us about 830pm after his studying at National Library.

Had dinner at Hongkong Char Chan Teng. On our way there, i saw this..

SO amazing! umbrella vending machine! i think it's quite costly. I wonder how many pple will actually buy from it..
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Day before yesterday, went J8 to accompany QC buy his shirt and tie for interview at G2000. Bought a white shirt and blue tie..for about $103! worth the investment.. Though i think my dear fren did rather well in the interview, he claimed that he screwed it up.. well, shall wait for the reply from ******

Banana 3! B3~
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This week is gonna be... i dunno.. i really hope i can pull through.. please, my dear friends.. motivate me this whole week.. and control me from spending money... March is gonna be the LAST month i'm gonna splurge.. Friends.. h e l p~