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Pegasus

Dar is in this company.. told the people in office...everyone say it's good.. not as tough as MTV :) glad for dar dar...

msged me at 5.06am.. didn't see it till about 8am... when i woke up... so happy to recieve msg from dar.. woke up with a sprain on the left side of my neck.. dunno why... hmm...

Anyway, it's a long day today.. teach piano from 9am all the way, non-stop till 530pm... change 2 classes to today... coz yesterday went tekong with dar... didn't have lunch... but also not hungry leh.. dunno why... just teach... time flies... dun even know it's evening already..

supposed to be office at 2pm today to do sketch.. but can't lah.. teaching piano.. but the rest of the people went ahead... those who can... claire, veron, jin zhen & xiu yu went to buy clothes for april 16th today... hm... xiu yu's one is a spaghetti black dress...simple knee-length.. think she'll look sweet... jinzhen one i haven't see yet...she say she left it in office.. she only bought a top, coz she got skirt at home already...so jean ask her to bring the skirt tmr.. then see if can match :)

then mom called me... confirm where to meet.. well, i said i'm teaching piano at shaw plaza... so my mom and HE came.. i was on the 3rd level of shaw plaza... they're late.. i went to walk walk.. didn't think much..really... till my HP rang.. mom's already at shaw plaza... i was quite nervous leh... haven't seen him for so many years.. can't remember a single thing.. then...when i was going down on the escalator... i was scouting around... my mom say i look like him.. i starting to comb my hair.. trying to look as presentable as i can.. dunno what's wrong with me man..

anyway, when i reached the 1st floor... my mom called me.. i asked...where's he... haha..he went toilet... probably to comb hair... haha..just guessing :) then he came.. oh god.. so ugly! haha.. no lah..just that.. he doesn't look like wat i thot he should look like...coz from what i remembered, i got a photo of him, carrying me when i was a few months old...tall and skinny... now.. ok lah.. of a reasonable height, and not fat, not skinny..i would say....fit.... dunno how to describe... anyway, he asked where to eat... i said somewhere air-conditioned.. so we ended up in novena fish and co... ate seafood platter for one :) all by myself... so full!

spend about 1.5 hours there... chit chatting.. hmm.. just normal conversation.. he say i'm dark.... argh! anyway... we went to office...chatted in small office with chris... then sat thru 20 mins of rtm.. then go back into small room for Q&A... then mummy and i sent him down.. then bye bye...
after that, brought mummy up to office to introduce to everybody... then went mac to talk to mummy...for about an hour... then walk with mummy to bus stop... then went back office... to find that they all going back already... hmmm.... then, xinyang fetched me home...

didn't chat much with Dar today..he like busy leh.. or issit he don't love me already :( hmm... can he still remember how i look like? alrighty..it's been a long day... i shall continue with part 2 tmr.. about our conversations... and my deeper feelings...

Miss you dar dar!

NS Enlistment Day


Went to Tekong today... well, woke up at about 9 am today... coz dar has been bugging me for Mac big breakfast meal for days! but always cannot wake up, today...we finally went.. after eating mac, went to buy biscuit... then came home to prepare somemore stuff for army...

Dar is so nervous...then hor, i keep thinking to myself.... on the day that we're gonna get married, dunno he'll be so nervous or not? actually, i realise that Dar is very cute... he may be egoistic...and puts up a strong and brave front... but i think, deep inside, he's still nervous... afterall, he's a young boy still...not even 21... perhaps i always forsee him as someone mature.. come to think of it, i forgot that he's 21 years old!

Keep taking pictures.. it's a warm warm weather... i sit in the ferry, i feel like tearing already..but i never.. i know...once dar hops on the ferry, he'll not be back on main land till 22nd april... anyway, we toured around.. waited for very long.. i toured before already, so nothing much.. only looking forward to dar take the oath.. so cute.. he look very toot with his shirt tucked in... so cute... so boyish..

Finally, we went to eat...western food leh! keke.. then dar gotta send us off...took some more picture... so funny... dar dar hug me.. then wanna kiss me.. but i shy... but ultimately.. still kissed... keke... well, didn't really feel sad... just miss him...

so tired.. then Dar's parents fetch his bro to school...wanted to fetch me to commonwealth, but i dun want... not very nice..so i took a train to commonwealth from YCK mrt station... very long never take already.. used to darling fetching me... miss miss..i must be independant...

From the looks of it, he's adapting quite well... Dar have no problems making frens de..i know.. just that he say the food sucks! keke... i very worried, that he can't wake up tmr morning.. i'll leave him a msg every night before i sleep.. see if he'll read it next morning...

Miss you Dar Dar..

Haven't blogged for months! anyway... Darling and I are together for a year already! 29th March 2005.. seems quite long.. hmm.. perhaps in this year, we've really spent alot of time together.. well, we were supposed to wake up at 7am, then go eat soya bean curd and you jia kuay at Geylang..but we both can't wake up..haha..expected.. however, we woke up at 1030am...not bad le... went kallang to settle our swimming stuff, then went to suntec to eat Fish & Co.. eat until darling wanna vomit *keke* then..wanted to go marina and shop.. but under renovation *argh* spent the whole day walking around... suddenly realised that singapore is quite small..but anyway, i really enjoyed yesterday.. as long as darling is beside me, anywhere on earth is ok :) oh! we also went serangoon to see fishes!

Decided not to go out yesterday..partly because i'm sick...and also because i really wanna spend time with darling..he's going NS soon..i know he's feeling down.. PNS..pre-NS-syndrom...

After reading his blog, i can totally relate with what he's trying to say... about the past.. how he used to be so carefree...but now that he's chose a different route...well, same goes for me..

2 years later, i believe dar's future and mine will be very bright..But now dar will have to go thru the NS phrase...and i pormise to go thru every single minute of it with him!

not too long ago was Valentines' Day.. in fact, it was 2 days ago..

Happy chinese new year! on the first on new year, i went to pasir ris to visit grandparents.. together with dar.. well, bitch was there but well, i'm not at all concerned if she's there or not.. well, they kinda know that i have a boyfriend now.. dunno why, i get really emotional during chinese new year.. probably it's because i get to visit my relatives and have a flashback of my childhood.. not just on the unhappy memories, but on the happy ones too...like how everyone doted on me..

then went to Dar's relatives' place.. was sitting beside dar all the while, see him play mahjong.. was quite bored, so took a short walk to Hougang point..then shun bian use the toilet there to poo poo *keke* got aircon mah..

then went to nanny's house in the evening.. Dar came along too.. then met my mom... again, they chatted...this time about biz.. think Dar got a little interested..

anyway, to conclude, this chinese new year is a little weird... dunno how to explain leh.. i feel kinda close to my mom... budden again, i didn't even step into my own house... instead, i'm at dar's house.. hiya, dunno lah...

sometimes i even felt that it's a wrong move to move to dar's place.. coz it's even more conflicting.. i have plans... probably to germ's place.. perhaps.. things would be better if we see less of each other... also.. dar's mom thot of buying car... i wouldn't mind going for this idea.. but wat if things dun turn out the way it is... sigh.. i really dunno..

i just feel extremely pressurised.. and i really don't like the way things are now.. i mean... yes.. money is important.. but so wat? it's never enough.. now i finally understand the meaning of "money is the root of all evil"... but please... i need space... my own space.. i really seriously feel like a robot now... i'm feelingless... i'm numb.. there's no life and love in me anymore..

z o m b i e~

New yEar is like just 2 days ahead...year of the rooster! Tmr's reunion dinner.. i've already booked a restaurant nearby my house, to bring daddy, mummy, ernest, fanny and rachel for dinner :) booked steamboat buffet at marina square actually, but i find that it's too boring eating steamboat...thot we can eat more variety of dishes :) i had to order the dishes before the actualy day, so they can prepare (haha, like getting married lydat) *keke* i odered Sharksfins with scallop, steam fish..dunno how they call it..something like "kim bak lor" in hokkien, butter prawns, kangkong, 2 crabs, fried chicken, fried beancurd... think that's all.. dunno how to order, anyhow order *keke*

probably go grandfather's house on wed morning.. then have lunch there till about 2pm... then will follow darling around le.. then at night go to nanny's place.. feel kinda excited about new year.. dunno why..

i started my driving lesson again last wed.. i like this instructor... hopefully i'll pass! driving test is on march 16th.. gotta pass man.. if not when Dar goes army on April 8, nobody will fetch me :(
dunno how issit like when Dar goes army.. will i be lost? hmm.. been quarreling these few days.. because of work.. sigh..

sometimes i really HATE this kinda feeling.. if given me a choice again, i wouldn't wanna mix work and relationship.. i'm actually feeling quite numb now.. unsure how to describe the feeling, but i'm just afraid that the "special" kind of feeling will soon die off...

watever it is, all the best for me in the rooster year!

been almost a month since i blogged...very busy with stuff..lazy to blog too..

New year is coming.. that's like super soon! ..just a week more.. have yet to buy my new year clothes.. budget.. and, valentine's day is coming!

Wonder how will my new year be like this year, thought of bringing my family out for steamboat buffet in Marina Square.. that'll be like $30 per person..so, altogether (Me, Mummy, Ernest, Fanny, Rachel.. daddy-if he wants to come)..bitch is outta my list.. so, should be about $200..it's quite reasonable mah..now i gotta like go and book the place..that'll be on 8th Feb..

On 9th Feb, the usual thing would be lunch at pasir ris.. grandparents place.. but this time, i would be setting off from sembawang, instead of AMK.. usually will reach there about 11am, this time think i'll bring darling there.. meet my grandparents.. my parents.. my relatives, then..go off le.. after that usually will visit my dad's side of relative, but dun think i'll wanna go this year.. not cloes to them at all, bloody hell dun even know who are they.. probably follow darling around.. then night time, wanan bring darling to my nanny's place.. my mom and sisters will be there too..so, we can gather again :)

this year seems to be a year of challenges ahead for me, but i wanna make sure that january 2006, will be the best new year of my life! also..i'll be turning 21 this year.. soon.. 4 more months.. gotta make sure i'll make a mark by then!

it's gonna be the time of the year! Christmas! hmm... it's gonna be a different christmas this year.. from the past years.. usually i'll spend them with serene. eileen etc.. at church...but this year, i'll be with friends.. and in Kukup.. first time not spending christmas in Singapore.. gonna leave on friday morning..24th...x'mas eve.. i'll give mummy a call on thursday night.. wish her merry christmas first..

met a funny taxi driver today.. i took it from woodlands to ang mo kio.. then chatted on the way..the i just merely told him the if he is around this area and has no passengers, can come back here 45 mins later... and indeed.. 45 mins later, he's at the carpark..haha.. so i took his cab from AMK to bishan.. then i told him that if he is around pasir ris and has no passenger, can come at 2pm.. and at 2pm, he's at pasir ris! haha.. then after that, no more le lah.. haha.. he says day time no business de.. his working hours is 7am to 10pm at night.. so he says if he's around the area, he dun mind.. got money to earn mah.. actually like that also good lah...i dun need to wait for cab *keke* he gave me his name card.. then next time i can call him...dun need to pay extra fee leh...

tmr 11am going childcare watce carel and desmond perform.. so exciting..dunno how issit like in cihldcare to celebrate x'mas.. oh! i bought a x'mas present already.. for the gift exchange at KuKup trip.. the person i'm supposed to buy for is..hmm.. well, not exactly close to her...but alright lah.. bought her a blouse.. the budget is $10, so i bought her a $10 blouse from This Fashion.. not bad k :) well..wonder who picked my name..i have this strong feeling that it's Ronald..well, i'll know it soOn!

Merry Christmas!