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EUSTOMA


Outgoing, Thoughts, Calming, Well-spoken...






it's already been 2 weeks.. since i started teaching.. fast.. I'm in my third week and still surviving.. manageable.. but seriously lack of sleep. It's a good thing that i keep myself busy.. so that my mind will not wander around.. i used up every hour, every min, every sec that i can squeeze outta my 24 hours..

I'm on an anklet hunt. It's very frustrating.. because most accessories shop does not have a wide variety of designs to choose from.. if not, some shops dun even carry anklets at all! I think i still fancy those at Perlini's.. Tiffany and Co does not carry anklets.. poh heng,lee hwa etc all dun have leh.. sigh~ However, I saw one at AMK Hub.. at SK Jewelry.. they do have this design that caught my eye.. zig zagged chain and heart shaps all around~ cost $199 though.. compare to Perlini's... ANyway, i have a good mind to buy it myself.. this week...

Looking forward to this weekend.. 4 more days to go!
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I'm in the midst of the path that i took
I can't turn back, nor can i move forward.
and I dislike the feeling of being stuck in-between.
I dislike uncertainty.
Tell me...
that I've won.
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The Winner Takes It All


I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That's her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologizeIf it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see

The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

Me and my crazy idea.. i thot of carrying lantern around some gardens or parks.. coz, it's been a long time since I did just that.. was on a children's day 2 years ago i think..

Initially, it was just me and him.. but asked Veron and YJ along.. then so happened that Ernest and Valerie came too! and thunder!

Anyway, we managed to light up 5 lanterns i bought from AMK central.. and walked around the AMK Ave 4 little garden.. ya.. and we really walked one round~

Wanted to go Bishan Park.. but 哥哥 came back and asked for a mahjong session. Agreed! Thus, we just proceeded downstairs to play with the stuff i bought.

with the 2 little boxes of candles i bought, we managed to line up the steps of the staircase with them. Nice! Actually, Mid-Autumn's more of playing with candles than lanterns ya? hee~ It was really quite a pretty sight~

Should have brought along some mooncakes or some tea.. haha..

Group photo! Asked someone to take for us.. with thunder!


Thereafter, went up to Veron's house for Mahjong!

An enjoyable mid-autumn spent~

SUNFLOWER




Adoration, Pride, Sunshine, Warmth, Happiness!

BLUE ROSE

YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME!

Signify mystery or attaining the impossible... Signified hope against unattainable love~

Lily



Youth, Acceptance!

Tulip

Romance, Charity, Perfect lover, Fame, Love, Passion, Royalty, True Love~

totally not used to waking up so freaking early in the morning.. it's been 5 years..since i woke up THAT early (unless i have a flight to catch).

Even in Poly, i dun wake up THAT early.

workload's fine..(won't even call it work).. it's the waking up early lah..

Thanks to ZW for morning call... and morning calls to come..haha~ Till my bio clock is tuned alright!

3.5 months to year end..oh my.. really fast. Time to plan for my year end trip.
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It's going no where..
Really.
I dun see a direction.
So...
I'll navigate myself away.
s l o w l y.

女：刚好　我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧
在错的时候情路上遇到

男：若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁
看你重回他怀抱

女：嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲

男：因为你说　
说到做到
提的起放的下
才有男人的味道

女：我不是不知道
没有你的日子会有多么煎熬

男：就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到
只要能够对你好
我都会做到

男：若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁
看你重回他怀抱

女：嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲

男：因为你说　
说到做到
提的起放的下
才有男人的味道

女：我不是不知道
没有你的日子会有多么煎熬

合：就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到
只要能够对你好

女：你是否懂我的感受

男：说走却舍不得掉头

女：我不该爱的太重

男：让你我如此难过

合：为何我爱的一切没有结果

女：嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲

男：因为你说　
说到做到
提的起放的下
才有男人的味道

女：我不是不知道
没有你的日子会有多么煎熬

男：就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到
只要能够对你好
我都会做到

FINALLY! swimming's over.. 5 lessons... all over.. it's indeed very tiring.. and how i hoped for it to rain every weekend.. and of course.. it didn't.

Actually, it's kinda enjoyable to teach lah.. minus the tiredness.. no joke.. Sat 330pm to 730pm.. Sun 8am to 11am, 4pm to 5pm.. I remember last Sat, right after class, i slept from 8pm all the way till next morning.. i missed dinner loh..too tired to eat! then i went for class the next morning.. reached home at about 1130am..and i slept till 330pm..then go for next class.. simply..just sleep and sleep.. really very tired. I'm glad it's over~
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Aunt : You bought chocolates from somebody?
Me : (thinking that aunt's referring to Choc Eclairs i got from Claire) Yes! it's in the fridge!
Aunt : No.. it's in your room.. someone brought it over just now.
Me : Huh? deliver to doorstep?
Aunt : Yes! It's a guy with specs..
Me : Who? QC? aye.. but if it's QC, you'll know...so... WHO WHO WHO!
Aunt : He say you'll know once you see the chocolate. Why this guy so weird? Bring chocolate all the way up here..

- I dashed into my room -

*Mystery solved*

It's so SWEET lah~ wah piangz.. was grinning away. You really make the effort to make my day! Thanks dude!
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I've gotten my schedule for my school's time table already..and it's totally to my liking. I prayed so hard before i entered the VP's office. hee~ My piano student's schedule kinda remained unchanged.. just some rescheduling. Glad that some parents are more than willing to compromise. Everything went the way God wanted.
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I think.. i get what you mean.
Still.. it's not distinct enough.

I will go ahead with what i've decided.

Period.

I can't believe it.i actually completed 10km.. the furthest i ever ran was 5km.. and.. here's the results.. did 10km in 1 hour 30 mins 49 secs.. so proud of myself *patpat* was expecting like 1 hour 40 mins.. and outta the 1 million runners world wide.. i rank 206652! haha~ well, the number's not very "small" lah.. but still..not bad right! ^hee~

We should just leave that addictive place loh.. damn.. but it was indeed a fun and entertaining evening.. hee~ i think.. a solid 2 hours was spent there.. oops..

And got ourselves 2 new toys! haha~ opened it up.. only to discover that they have different facial expressions!

tada! and ya.. i didn't bring back the whole big bag of sweets! hee~ i still have a container load of mentos can! *faint* erm.. i dunno the exact use of these 2 "balls" you know.. i think, we're supposed to put candle into it.. and diffuse scent outta it.. aroma candles i guess.. i took the one with the smiley face and he took the other..

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it's 1:30am.. and i just got an overseas call! oh my.. how "early"..

supposed to go for "out field" today.. but was postponed. And.. he told me he was DOTA-ing and Command & Conquering the whole day! haha.. so fun loh! Speaking of which, the last time I DOTA-ed was at Pasir Ris Chalet..with the rest of the 7 guys.. Must jio more girls to play!

which reminds me of.. ZW! he called me this morning at 9:55am.. scary.. coz he seldom call me.. or rather, he don't call me at all! but glad he called.. coz I have violin at 11:15am! and i'm supposed to wake up at 8plus to practise violin and piano! i didn't hear my 3 alarms that went off! Anyway, he was too bored at work lah.. it's the school holidays for Pri school.. and the school's rather empty and quiet.. it was a short chat anyway.. about 15mins? talk mainly about the Nike run..haha.. probably coz i didn't return his msg yesterday when he touched down at Singapore.. *oops* I'm still alive lah.. !

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Bestie speaks his heart to me no more.. honestly, it's bothering me quite abit. I truly, wanna know what's going on in his life.. but never did i get an honest answer.. or rather, i can't differenciate what's the truth and what's not.. it's quite disturbing.. i can't discern..

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My mind has never been so clear before.
Outta sudden, the fog's cleared..
or rather, I cleared it myself.

Let it remain this way... a l w a y s.
I choose to

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