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It's a rainy day..again~ well, reached home at about 330am this morning, fell asleep at about 4am.. *yawn*, can't imagine i wake up so early today...1045am.. only slept for 6 hours plus, think i'll go take a nap agian later.. Darling never sleep, he says he can't sleep... and he had diarrhoea *oops*

Last evening, we went JB to celebrate his birthday... go there and eat....and eat...and eat... *keke* Dar didn't drive in, coz he say the cars there very fierce..so we took a bus in.. It's very near actually, Dar lives in Sembawang.. then a few stops only..less than an hour! I feel so secure with him in a 'foreign' country.. he's like, a walking map.. knowing where to go... and introducing the building, the culture, the ..everything... learnt alot from Dar :)

Actually wanted to bring Dar to Ponderosa or Steamboat... then i wanted to ask the waiter to put the watch i bought on a plate, and cover it with a cover...ask the waiter to deliver it to him...keke.. but anyhow, i gave Dar the watch at his house..on the sofa.. before midnight.. if not, the birthday over le... Hope he likes it.. Then...we went orchird country club to play pool.. till 3am.. haha~ very eggiciting.. 2nd time playing with Dar..

And... i didn't go for training again today! aiyah.. important event mah.. Sunday's the competition and we never train! *shit* Think gotta meet up with the team this Sat to train already..If not, our record will be broken by other teams! and i want my gold medal again this year!

Nuradee Bros Pte Ltd called me, ask me to teach piano for them..it's a newly estalished music school that does vocal courses, guitar, singing, piano, album production, etc... this music school is actually runned by few Malays..and they are actually award winning team...having albums in Singapore, and other countries...won countless awards...and they do songs for Suria Channel! *keke* they're artistes...well, i dunno..coz i'm not at all in touch with the malay music industry...but they do sound very popular...haha.. well, dunno if i wanna teach there leh.. hmm.. will consider with my Dar..

I'm beginning to feel..everything's getting on track.. i'm on my way to my dreams! P.E.R.S.E.R.V.E.R.E~

It's Darling's birthday today! It's weird..ya, but i'm at his house now..came to his house in the morning to give him a surprise (though he doesn't seemed surprised at all) *gee* Wanted to stay over last night, but i can't..Mum's nagging at me already..*sobz* so poor Dar had to spend the cold cold night alone.. i will try to make it up to him..i'll try..

Duno wat's on his mind last night, he doesn't wanna spell it out..it's killing me.. i'm curious.. perhaps, he was upset that i wasn't there to spend the night with him..like how SHE used to do it.. I know when Dar is sad.. or whenever i make him unhappy, he will think of her.. He's still reading her blog, wanting to know more of her.. usually i can't tolerate this kinda thing..but this time.. i just tell myself, since i can't make him happy. let him do wat he wants..be it talk to her, msg her, read her blog, go out with her.....................................Let him be...

Never felt so useless in my life.. that my own bf still think of other girls when in a relationship with me.. i mean, *sigh* nobody will understand how a girl feels... how i feel....

I'm putting on a mask..i'm not real..i'm artificial..i'm f.a.k.e

I feel so exhausted..i dunno why.. the weather's so cold today.. can't feel the warmth of the sun.. i'm gloomy.. i'm down.. K.O

The weather looks gloomy today.. dampens my mood a little.. Fanny had her practical exam today, and she came outta the exam room crying.. She's took stressed up.. Mummy stressed her too much..actually, she really tried her best, i heard her practising the piano early in the morning.. Well, she's grade 5 this year..i mean, for a 12 year old girl, it's really very good already..she'll be taking grade 8 in Sec3, that's a very out-standing result!

I can totally understand how she feels.. My mummy used to stress me alot when i was young.. took up so many classes; ballet, art, abacus, swimming, piano, drums etc...too many.. ultimately, i only stick to piano and swimming.. Thank God, i've completed my grade 8 two years back.. she nags at me everyday just to practise the piano, and when i failed my grade 6 and 7, my ears never had peace at all.. Mummy's just trying to push us to our limits, to perform our best..but mummy never know that all me and fanny wanted was just kind words of encouragement..that's all..

Well, if Fanny really fails her grade 5, guess i'll teach her instead..

Went to Lynn's 21st bday on Sat.. Dar supposed to go with me, but i just couldn't wake him up *argh* Anyhow, i got to watch my Harry Porter.. then stayed over at Dar's place..

I'm going for lifeguard training tonight! weeEeE~ get to swim again, after so long.. and most importantly, getting to meet all my friends again!

It's just another day.. i'm going cycling at east coast in 6 hour's time.. time to get moving man..i'm lazy! super Lazy... gee~ how? any remedies?

"Knowing is not enough, we must apply. Willing is not enough, we must DO!" -Goethe

I know wat i'm supposd to do... i am willing to do..just that my body parts just doesn't seem to coordinate the way i want it to be..

It's Lynn's 21st tmr.. it's gonna be a fun-filled day tmr..with so many activities... cycling in the morning..till afternoon..then go home, wash up...go party! then.. go watch Harry Porter with Dar..midnight show i guess..then stay over at his place..

Still thinking whether to stay over though.. i dunno..suppose to let him be.. for the month of July, for him to concentrate on what he's supposed to do.. so hesitant *shit* wanna leave him alone, yet half of my being longs to be with him.. It somehow feels like a norm, to stay over at his house on weekends.. in fact, i'm not used to my own bed anymore..haha~

Jean has been really very sweet..and i really love her... She's like my 'Rich mom'..haha~ nice analogy..

Dar's bday in 11 day's time...dunno wat to get for him...neh neh.. i'm cracking my head..

I'm gonna meet alot of pple at Lynn's party tmr.. gee.. GIlbert, Jesslin, Shao Mei, Sheryl..and goodness knows who else! and next week's Jason's 21st..wah! even more pple to meet up.. those whom i haven't spoken with for months! michael, kevin, Stef, Charmain, Jason, Wen Han, Alvin..and so many more..

I'm going back for lifeguard traning the whole of next week..and the week after...coz competition's in 2 week's time! Haven't been in water for months!

I'm looking forward to meeting up with everyone again!...and my wisdom tooth! should i go for the surgery? i hate needles....

Sometimes i see a dream ahead
A dream I cannot hold
I dream of watching birds go by
Of flowers in the sky
But all that i can ever see
Are pictures in my mind
Surrounded by the misery
I wish that i could live behind

Somewhere inside my lonely heart
I see those pictures there
Of fields and forests, hills and vales
Where i can just run free
I'm waiting, watching, hoping
Looking for a sign
But all the I can see ahead
Are only pictures in my mind

Some day, somehow i hope we'll find
A place to call our own
Where we can watch the clouds roll by
In rainbow-coloured skies
I have a dream, a secret dream
Of a place that's ours alone
A land where we can wander free
A home a place for you and me

Just hold on to the dreams inside you
Trust in what the Lord can do
And some day soon you'll find
Those pictures in your mind
Will finally come true for you

Went Suntec to walk walk yesterday..interesting day..hmm... went Sembawang Dental to loan my tooth's X-ray from them..then went to redeem the Eng Wah points for 2 tickets...gonna watch Harry Porter on Saturday! Yipee! after so LoOoOoooOnG~

So irritating...Went back to Dar's place..and he left me there...he slept on the sofa from 8pm to 10pm..Bish.. fed him with logans that mummy bought, and he can chew with his eyes closed..piggy~ then i just sit there play computer and watch tv *hmph*

Today dar's mummy so funny..keep nagging and beating Dar.. asking him to treasure me *keke* it's hilarious..i mean.. i dunno how to explain.. then she called me..telling me to 'report' to her if Dar ever bullies me..wahhaha~ Dar's mummy really very nice.. very 'xian qi liang mu'..

And i'm supposed to annouce here that Dar' has ultra sensitive nipples *bleah*

*oOPs* anyway, i managed at last to post photo onto the blog.. i'm really bad at IT stuff man.. it's so cheem..it's alienated language makes me goggy..

Tried on my blades..and i 4got how to blade totally! *shit*

Yuling's asking me out to Zouk on thurs.. but my tooth cannot make it leh..later i go zouk with swollen face..like bear lydat..eecks.. i'll try though..