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not too long ago was Valentines' Day.. in fact, it was 2 days ago..

Happy chinese new year! on the first on new year, i went to pasir ris to visit grandparents.. together with dar.. well, bitch was there but well, i'm not at all concerned if she's there or not.. well, they kinda know that i have a boyfriend now.. dunno why, i get really emotional during chinese new year.. probably it's because i get to visit my relatives and have a flashback of my childhood.. not just on the unhappy memories, but on the happy ones too...like how everyone doted on me..

then went to Dar's relatives' place.. was sitting beside dar all the while, see him play mahjong.. was quite bored, so took a short walk to Hougang point..then shun bian use the toilet there to poo poo *keke* got aircon mah..

then went to nanny's house in the evening.. Dar came along too.. then met my mom... again, they chatted...this time about biz.. think Dar got a little interested..

anyway, to conclude, this chinese new year is a little weird... dunno how to explain leh.. i feel kinda close to my mom... budden again, i didn't even step into my own house... instead, i'm at dar's house.. hiya, dunno lah...

sometimes i even felt that it's a wrong move to move to dar's place.. coz it's even more conflicting.. i have plans... probably to germ's place.. perhaps.. things would be better if we see less of each other... also.. dar's mom thot of buying car... i wouldn't mind going for this idea.. but wat if things dun turn out the way it is... sigh.. i really dunno..

i just feel extremely pressurised.. and i really don't like the way things are now.. i mean... yes.. money is important.. but so wat? it's never enough.. now i finally understand the meaning of "money is the root of all evil"... but please... i need space... my own space.. i really seriously feel like a robot now... i'm feelingless... i'm numb.. there's no life and love in me anymore..

z o m b i e~

New yEar is like just 2 days ahead...year of the rooster! Tmr's reunion dinner.. i've already booked a restaurant nearby my house, to bring daddy, mummy, ernest, fanny and rachel for dinner :) booked steamboat buffet at marina square actually, but i find that it's too boring eating steamboat...thot we can eat more variety of dishes :) i had to order the dishes before the actualy day, so they can prepare (haha, like getting married lydat) *keke* i odered Sharksfins with scallop, steam fish..dunno how they call it..something like "kim bak lor" in hokkien, butter prawns, kangkong, 2 crabs, fried chicken, fried beancurd... think that's all.. dunno how to order, anyhow order *keke*

probably go grandfather's house on wed morning.. then have lunch there till about 2pm... then will follow darling around le.. then at night go to nanny's place.. feel kinda excited about new year.. dunno why..

i started my driving lesson again last wed.. i like this instructor... hopefully i'll pass! driving test is on march 16th.. gotta pass man.. if not when Dar goes army on April 8, nobody will fetch me :(
dunno how issit like when Dar goes army.. will i be lost? hmm.. been quarreling these few days.. because of work.. sigh..

sometimes i really HATE this kinda feeling.. if given me a choice again, i wouldn't wanna mix work and relationship.. i'm actually feeling quite numb now.. unsure how to describe the feeling, but i'm just afraid that the "special" kind of feeling will soon die off...

watever it is, all the best for me in the rooster year!

been almost a month since i blogged...very busy with stuff..lazy to blog too..

New year is coming.. that's like super soon! ..just a week more.. have yet to buy my new year clothes.. budget.. and, valentine's day is coming!

Wonder how will my new year be like this year, thought of bringing my family out for steamboat buffet in Marina Square.. that'll be like $30 per person..so, altogether (Me, Mummy, Ernest, Fanny, Rachel.. daddy-if he wants to come)..bitch is outta my list.. so, should be about $200..it's quite reasonable mah..now i gotta like go and book the place..that'll be on 8th Feb..

On 9th Feb, the usual thing would be lunch at pasir ris.. grandparents place.. but this time, i would be setting off from sembawang, instead of AMK.. usually will reach there about 11am, this time think i'll bring darling there.. meet my grandparents.. my parents.. my relatives, then..go off le.. after that usually will visit my dad's side of relative, but dun think i'll wanna go this year.. not cloes to them at all, bloody hell dun even know who are they.. probably follow darling around.. then night time, wanan bring darling to my nanny's place.. my mom and sisters will be there too..so, we can gather again :)

this year seems to be a year of challenges ahead for me, but i wanna make sure that january 2006, will be the best new year of my life! also..i'll be turning 21 this year.. soon.. 4 more months.. gotta make sure i'll make a mark by then!

it's gonna be the time of the year! Christmas! hmm... it's gonna be a different christmas this year.. from the past years.. usually i'll spend them with serene. eileen etc.. at church...but this year, i'll be with friends.. and in Kukup.. first time not spending christmas in Singapore.. gonna leave on friday morning..24th...x'mas eve.. i'll give mummy a call on thursday night.. wish her merry christmas first..

met a funny taxi driver today.. i took it from woodlands to ang mo kio.. then chatted on the way..the i just merely told him the if he is around this area and has no passengers, can come back here 45 mins later... and indeed.. 45 mins later, he's at the carpark..haha.. so i took his cab from AMK to bishan.. then i told him that if he is around pasir ris and has no passenger, can come at 2pm.. and at 2pm, he's at pasir ris! haha.. then after that, no more le lah.. haha.. he says day time no business de.. his working hours is 7am to 10pm at night.. so he says if he's around the area, he dun mind.. got money to earn mah.. actually like that also good lah...i dun need to wait for cab *keke* he gave me his name card.. then next time i can call him...dun need to pay extra fee leh...

tmr 11am going childcare watce carel and desmond perform.. so exciting..dunno how issit like in cihldcare to celebrate x'mas.. oh! i bought a x'mas present already.. for the gift exchange at KuKup trip.. the person i'm supposed to buy for is..hmm.. well, not exactly close to her...but alright lah.. bought her a blouse.. the budget is $10, so i bought her a $10 blouse from This Fashion.. not bad k :) well..wonder who picked my name..i have this strong feeling that it's Ronald..well, i'll know it soOn!

Merry Christmas!

feel like an ant today...so hardworking... ran all around singapore today.. woke up at 9am.. went hougang to teach Mikki till 11am.. then went to St Nicks' to see Fanny's PSLE results... well, she got 240.. so, i still maintain the highest PSLE score of 245 in my family! *keke* but this year's standard really very high... even the newspaper published that the science paper was not in the syllybus at all... but Fanny got all A's..not too bad.. that time i still got higher chinese.. but useless one lah..only add to my exam work load.. then mummy went too.. so all throughout, i was chatting with her.. she miss me.. keke..

She told me to visit my nanny and grandfather frequently.. coz they're old already... then took care of me when i'm young.. so i should go and visit them... so i've made up my mind.. i'm gonna visit grandfather & nanny monthly.. grandfather on the 3rd week, nanny on the 4th week..

Mummy's gonna retire.. then she told me some of her worries..that scared money not enough.. i guess that will push me to strive harder now.. really.. but i really dunno how to organise my time..

then after PSLE results, i went shaw to teach again.. then went to aranda to help Jiarui check in his class chalet.. damn far.. took me 1.5 hours to travel there... decided that i dun wanna take bus home, so i demanded $10 from their class fund as my transport fee, so i'm home! :)

still having gastric.. pain! gonna have dinner soon.. lalala~ and lorraine's labtop is back! just annouce for her.. coz i know she's happy..

oh! and i read jiaxin's blog yesterday.. wah piangz... damn exciting man...machiam scandal.. never mind.. i'm a bitch myself.. actually i suddenly came to realised that girls from girls' school are quite daring, compared to mixed school.. i dunno how to put it across... it's just that the way we do things are different.. i'm sure Girls' school girls will understand what i'm talking about..

H.U.N.G.R.Y

oh man.. finally, 4 wisdom teeth were extracted! went Alexandra hospital on wed... darling drove me and mummy there... and i was then asked to remove all jewellery and change into the sugery 'gown'...then suppose to lie down on the bed and they monitor my situation.. so scary.. i took blood test and i cry like hell...so paiseh... luckily the nurses were nice..

then they have to put the "tube" into my vein...and my wrist there... so that i can be put on drip.. freak out man! but anyhow, i made friends with the nurses there .. so i wasn't so bored.. then when time comes... i walk to the surgery room... i was told to lie down.. so scary...all the equipment around me... then.. the nurse talked to me.. i know..he was trying to divert my attention... coz i know.. at that time.. i'm gonna be knock out.. the nurse asked "girl..wat's your weight".... i remembered replying "it's confidential.. i know you're trying to divert my attention.. and i can feel something.. i'm gonna sleep soon, bye bye~"...haha..lame... then when i woke up, everything was over. woke up with 2 gauze stuff in my mouth.. then nurse passed me the 4 teeth that was extracted..however..it was short of one.. haha.. nurse say that particular tooth was unique, dentist decides to take photograph of it and keep it... hmm... wonder how it looks like...

supposed to go remove the stitches today.. still must pay $27 *HMPH* but can't make it today.. hafta go another time then.. perhaps tmr... wonder how issit like to remove the stitches...eecks.. better not be painful..

After the surgery, i have to take like 7 pills after meal.. antibiotics, painkillers..etc... then gastric came... sigh... pain like shit.. for a few days already.. wanna die..

Mummy's gonna retire soon.. and i've to strive doubly hard.. coz i know. she'll depend on me in future..

it's time...for the extraction of my wisdom tooth... scared! i'm waiting now... for darling to wake up... then fetch my mom.. then off we go to alexandra hospital for the surgery.. scared, really very scared.. i'm not exactly afraid of the surgery.. the thing i'm really afraid of is the injection! oh well.. darling promised to be there..

sometimes, darling's waking up habit really get on my nerves.. it's a feat to overcome, trying to wake him up.. i just dun wanna bother anymore.. let him lead his own life.. and that i dun need to depend on him for fear that my schedule of the day will all be messed up... army will do him good...

there are butterflies, caterpillars, snakes, worms etc... crawling in my stomach now... off to the loo... wish me speedy tooth recovery!